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Ally-may, 14 years old has been diagnosed with and ED, depression, selfharm, anxiety and suicidal thoughts. So many people have said she won't get better but she doesn't even know if she will....

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Eight years ago (6 years old)

"Ally, have you seen how fat your thighs are?" I pulled my mud covered pe kit closer to me as I just stood there in my underwear staring at my body. Do you think you're pretty ally? Look, when I hit your legs all they do is wobble. The two girls started laughing while all I could do is hold back the tears that were fighting against me to come out, "aww ally can't handle the truth, she's gonna cry"......

Present (14 years old)

I stared at the therapist that was sitting in front of me m, writing down everything I say or do "I..I just remember them leaving....and Turing round to face the mirror behind me, and breaking down in tears...all I could see on my body was fat....I tested every where on my body for bits that would wobble and when I found them I would cry harder...." I looked up to see the therapists face, she looked at me with sympathy....fake sympathy....but hey....everyone knows how disgusting, fat, ugly and worthless I am any way....the only reason she's helping me is because she gets payed. She scratched her pen across the worn out papers a bit more and smiled "thank you ally, I think we're done now" I pulled myself of the chair and went to grab te door handle until I felt a pair of arms wrap round me "I'm here for you ally, we all are" I shrugged the old woman of my waist and walked to the car. "She's pointless mum, I don't even know why you send me here? I doesn't help me, I've only gotten worse" my mum turned her gaze and looked at me "ally, were all here to help you, you just need to let us, okay?" I can't do this anymore, I'm tired of everyone right now, I just want to be left alone, why won't anyone let me die... It's not like they want me alive anyway....

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