1. What Is "Ass-Burgers?"
Aspergers is not a burger with behavioral issues. However, it does come with an attitude problem meaning people's attitudes towards individuals with the syndrome. Aspergers is not a disorder or an illness. I am neither a confusing mess needing to be cleaned up nor am I a disease looking for a cure. I am a uniquely beautiful person with a syndrome because that's how I was made.
Aspergers is a syndrome that God gave to me upon my birth. He created me with a specific group of symptoms that consistently occur together in order to develop a unique and different perspective of life. He gave me a gift to use in order to change the world's attitude towards anybody who is different from themselves and their preconceived notions of how the world should be. I don't think of it as a curse or something that weighs me down. If anything it keeps me going. He didn't just give me a syndrome. He gave me the gift of motivation.
Aspergers isn't evil. It wasn't given to me by Satan, the devil himself. I'm not being weighed down by a sin nor am I in need of therapy or medicine. I don't need to be fixed or have my behavior modified in order to fit in with the rest of society. I'm not broken and I don't need anyone to change me. I was created special and with a purpose because God makes no mistakes. I am not a mistake.
I wasn't always proud of my autism. When I was a child my mom had me tested for a learning disability. That's when my parents discovered that I have Aspergers. Aspergers is a form of high functioning autism which can often make socializing difficult as well as overload my senses with the chaos of normal living.
I've always had a hard time making friends and an even harder time keeping them. I'm easily overwhelmed especially in social situations. Sometimes I shut down because I don't know how to handle things. When I shut down I tend to stop talking as opposed to a meltdown where I blow up and lash out.
It's not always a picnic to live with Aspergers but it makes me who I am. The most difficult thing for me to do is verbally communicate my feelings to other people. That's why I decided to write this book. I may not be able to tell you what I need but if you take the time to read this then maybe you might begin to understand me. I'm not trying to be difficult or make life harder for the people around me. I'm just trying to be myself and do something that I have never done before in my entire life. I'm going to welcome you into my world. I just want someone to see where I'm coming from and try to understand who I really am. I don't want to feel like I'm stuck in a box anymore. I want my voice to be heard so I'm going to tell my story.