8. Dear Clarissa 0.8
I was thinking a lot about what I wrote to you last time. Do people really forget and move on from those who have died because they think it brings them sadness? I know my mom's mom died and whenever my mom talks about her, she always crying but with a smile on her face. And when I asked her if she's crying because she's sad, she would say, "they are tears of happiness." But I remember my Uncle Joe crying over his wife that died five years ago. He would get drunk whenever he would think of her and there are moments where he has tried to forget about her. I don't want that to happen to me. I want to be able to think about you all the time. Remember the good things that happened to us. The adventures that we went on. Everything that me and you did together. I don't want to blame you, your family, me, or anybody about what happened to you. I don't want to cry myself to sleep, wishing that you were still here. I just want to accept what to you and still be able to not feel heartbroken.
I haven't taken
Tommy to the park like I always did, so I decided to do that today. We haven't been talking that much and messing around like we used to so it felt good when we went. We had lots of fun. I miss hanging with Tommy. I have to go. Love you, Clari. I miss you.
If you haven't figured it out, Tommy is Jesse's younger brother. It almost sounded like it was his dog, but it's not.