3. Dear Clarissa 0.3
Remember when we would go on your laptop and type in your name in all different languages and I asked which one was your favorite and you said it was in Chinese? The only reason you liked it was because it sounded weird. For some reason, that just popped into my mind and I started laughing. I went to our favorite ice cream shop and I ordered my favorite one. Oreo shake. I almost ordered yours too until I realized what I was doing, I started crying. In front of everyone. And I'm probably sure they thought I was weird, but at that moment I didn't care. I was crying over the best friend that was gone.
I was watching your favorite movie, Me and Earl and the Dying Girl. I still didn't cry when Rachel died, and I knew it was your mission to get to cry somehow so that ended up making me cry. I know, I know, you would probably be making fun of me for crying twice in one day. That you would want me to stay tough like I always am. I just... can't stop. I need you right now. But I guess that's what I get for not being there for you when you needed me.