7. Love Envy
During what would’ve been my lunch period, texts start rolling in.
Meg- Where’d u go?
Trish- Y weren’t u in 2nd pd?
Jayde- Did smthng hapn?
Jayde’s texts are always the hardest to read. She uses too much slang. I don’t reply right away because I don’t know what to say really. Then I decide to just tell them,
Me- My house after school. K?
I decide that will be the easiest way to tell them. It’s too long to type over text, and I’m too angry right now. I remember reading somewhere, “Don’t say things when you’re sad, and don’t do things when you’re mad!”
That quote just pops into my brain, and I feel like I should follow it. A lot of other things pop into my brain along with that quote. I start thinking about why on Earth a girl like Cass would want to kiss a guy like Jake. They’re not exactly a match made in Heaven.
The more I think about it, the angrier I get. I decide to read. I searched my backpack for my book, but I realized I left it in my locker. I decide that TV is my next best option. I turn on some old episodes of Glee. I envy Finn and Rachel. Two people, who found love in each other. I also envy Santana and Britany and Kirt and Blaine. Even though their love is slightly different, it’s still love, and it’s something that I envy because I don’t have it.