4. Realizing Reality
The plane lands in Chicago the next morning. I get off the plane and check into my hotel and drop off my luggage. I sit on the bed thinking of New York and everything that happened there. I laid down and buried my face in a pillow and cried. I cried about how I never felt the necklace buzz. I about what an impossible task this was going to be to travel every square inch of the earth in order to find true love. I cried for my fear of never having the necklace buzz. I cried over never finding true love.
I stopped crying. I realized that I wasn't looking for real true love. I was looking for government-issued love. What I felt while I was with Jack was true love. Jack didn't notice though. He was too wrapped up in the fact that his necklace was buzzing.
I was tired of it all. All the stupidness of the buzzing necklace. 23 years ago this isn't how life worked. 23 years ago I could've chosen who I wanted to love. But now I'm being told.
I give up on feeling the necklace buzz. From now on, I will travel the world only because I want to. Well, I'm also told to do so. But I will travel for fun. And if so where along the way the necklace buzzes, it will just be a bonus for me.