"When I got in, I shut my self in a stall and called the only person I trusted at the moment. When they answered, I said with a sob," Is it true, please tell me it's not?" I Heard the long pause and they said," I wish it wasn't, but he was drunk.....I'm sorry..." I was about to die right than and there... "
When I heard Calum confirm my worst fear, I just broke down crying. Calum tried to get me calm again, but I just couldn't. I gave Luke my soul. Drunk or not, it still hurts. I then told Calum bye and bolted out of school. I don't give a fuck right now about it. I just started to run and run and run. I didn't stop. I just run and I ran to the place of out first official date. When I got there, the lights were off in the forest and it seem it lost it's charm ...just like Luke and I . I dropped down in the middle and just bawled my eyes out. MY phone started to buzz like crazy, but I couldn't deal with anyone right now. I turned off my phone and just stayed on the ground crying.
I guess with everything going on in my head, I ended up falling asleep right there in the forest floor. When I woke up, it was pitch black out and the only light was the ones on the trees. which were finally turned on. I turned my phone and looked at the time: 11:50 p.m. my phone was also spammed with messages and calls from Luke. I just couldn't deal with him right now .After a few minutes to wake up I decided to walk back home.It took me about forty minutes to get home. When I finial got there, I was relieved to see that my parent's were still at work. I went to my room and collapsed on my bed. I got out my laptop and decided to try and distract myself with some Netflix's. After about an half hour of watching, I had an incoming call on Skype. It was Luke, I took a deep breath and clicked accept.
When the camera focused on me, I could see my blood shot eyes and messy hair that still had leaves in it. Luke didn't look as good either. His's eyes showed exhaustion and and didn't even bother to do his hair. We both were silent. Luke final poke up and said," I know that the picture doesn't look good and being drunk probably isn't a good excuse but I promise you, I only danced with her The boys stopped me before anything more could have happened. I don't know what to even say besides I am immensely sorry and that I honestly thought she was you......I being missing you so much , I guess when I got drunk I just thought I saw you. and I don't want this to ruin us..... Camron I love you too much and I miss you so much , I just want to hold you in my arms." Luke stopped talking and I don't know what to say. Many things were running through my mind and I just couldn't hold in the tears," I don't know what to say Luke, When I saw that picture I just felt like my heart was ripped out and you just danced with her and You never did anything wrong really....., But I don't know if I can handle this. You away on tour and not being able to see you for this long. I just don't know how to handle this.. I don't know if I can do this anymore..." I saw the hurt look on Luke's face when I said that . He then said in a panic voiced," Please no, We can work this out,, just a another Month and then we have a three week break. I'll come and see you and we can hang out all the time and don't do that, I love you too much." I sighed and nodded my head and said," I'm still fighting Luke , Trust me, I am and I won't stop. Not anytime soon at least." Luke smiled ," I love you so much , I hope you know that. I can't wait to see you Princess. I can't wait to see you." I smiled and said," Can't wait to see you too."
He then go pulled off for more interviews , concerts , etc.. I was too tired to deal with anything else, so I passed out. When I woke up , I had a raging fever and I called in sick. I spent the day laying around the house, eating away my loneliness. Luke called me too see how I was doing and make sure I was okay. Each time I told him I was fine and that he should stop worrying about me. I guess I really didn't want to talk to him just yet, was still shaken about the whole thing and how do you come back from something like. I love him so much still , but I just keep thinking about that one moment. Later on in the day, I was greeted by Conner and some food. I let him in, mostly for the food. He actually made good company for that day and wasn't being much of an asshole. Hopefully maybe he finally realized what a Dick he was. Of course when we finished the food he brought, I rushed him out of my house with the excuse that I don't want to get him sick and that I was really tired. I wasn't actually tired, I just didn't want him around me much longer, I wanted to take a nice long bath.