I was sitting on the school wall with my sunglasses on and my earbuds in my ear. I feel someone tap my should and I open my eyes. I see my friend Haley sitting next to me. She's smiling and says "Hi." I take out an ear bud and jerk my head to acknowledge.
She's the girly, peppy, always thinking positive sweet girl. Really innocent. She believes in true love. And I believe that it doesn't exist. She believes that there are nice guys in the world. I believe that all guys are dicks, only using girls for sex and fun. She believes in forever.
That is the one thing I absolutely do not believe in. No one will love me. I'm not popular nor am I a nerd or a jock. I'm not a band geek or a drama club person. I'm just me. Megan Garner. The girl who is like tough and stuff.
I'm the girl who sits on the school wall with ear buds, not paying attention to the world. I'm the girl who would sit alone at a lunch table but Haley sits with me and I love her. I'm not like an emo or anything but i seem to give off the vibe of "don't bother me cuz I'm bad". I'm not mean though. I protect the weak and what's right. I stand up for them. I care for pets at a pet store because I love pets. No one knows the real me but Haley.
And that's how I want it to stay. She said "So..." "Mhmm?" "Girl you have to show the school the real you. It's our second year already. You've been with these people for a year. Stop putting up a tough front." "I don't care. Let them see me as the mean bitch. No one bothers me. I have you, my best friend. I'm fine."
"But your not Megan. What about love?" "You know how I feel about that topic. It's dumb. No one will love me." "Megan your an amazing girl. Your sweet and nice. I love you. Your family loves you." I took off of my glasses and took out my ear bud. I put my hand on her shoulder and looked her in the eyes. "And that's all I need."
I jumped off the wall and so did she. She said "There are other types of love Meg. Love of a pet. Love of a neighbor. Love of a partner. A boyfriend Meg. You've never had one." We walked in the school and I said "I don't need one Haley." "It's not too late to get one." I rolled my eyes. "There are cute boys in this school. What about john?"
"Eww." "Kyle?" "You know how I feel about him Haley. He is my enemy." Kyle. He's a big jerk. He bullies people. And he's super mean to me and I don't know why. I hate him and I'm pretty sure he hates me too. "I know, that's why I meant that Kyle." She pointed at another Kyle who was cute. But there was a rumor that he cheated on girls. See boys are bad. I walked in our first class and sat down. "Stop Haley." She sighed and sat next to me.
I put my bag on the ground next to me and Kyle walked in with his girl toy behind him, Lilly. A sweet girl name but she is the total opposite. She's a bitch. Kyle walked by my desk and kicked it. He laughed and Lilly glared at me. I returned it and she walked away fast. I put up a tough front so people don't know what's really going on with me.
I have family problems. My parents might divorce. My mom just lost her job and is working as a waitress now. I work at the pet store to help with the money. My little sister Victoria has a heart problem. I have a eating disorder because of the stress and worry. I don't eat all the time and it got so bad that I fainted. I'm working on fixing that though because I need to be strong for my family.
My family doesn't know that sometimes at night I just cry. Haley is the only one that knows that. She adores my little sister. Victoria can't play all the time because her heart will start hurting. It gets so bad that sometimes when she's walking she just falls to the ground clutching her heart. She goes to the doctor every year. My grandparents are rich so they help pay for that.
So don't judge people on how they act or seem. You don't know what's really going on with them. They may be strong on the outside but may be broken in the inside.