19. Chapter 19
As I walked into the living room after my shower, I found Madison asleep on the couch.
She looked so peaceful and cozy that I didn't want to bother her.
Her face was relaxed and she looked so cute that it was hard not to watch her.
Smiling, I tore my face away from gazing at her and went into the kitchen.
It would be dinner time soon and I planned on surprising her.
I tried to be as quiet as possible--I didn't want to wake her.
As I cooked, I quietly hummed along to a song that had been on my mind all day.
It was a song that reminded me of Madison and I had to smile as I recalled the title.
Such a sweet song for a beautiful girl.
As I continued, I felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist and smiled as she leaned against me.
I decided to trick her.
"Good morning, love." I said, turning the stove off and turning around to face her.
She never releases me as she smiles. "Good morning. What are you upto?"
"I'm making you breakfast." I almost chuckled at her response, then it hit her.
"I SLEPT ALL EVENING AND NIGHT YESTERDAY?!?!" She was freaking out as she jumped away from me.
I laughed, hard....Too hard.
"This isn't funny! I'm so sorry!" She said and I just laughed more.
"N-no," I said, "I just wanted to t-tease you!" Laughing harder than when I began.
She playfully hit my shoulder. "Don't scare me like that!"
"I scared you?" I said, controlling my laughter now.
"Yes...." She says hesitently, making me frown--still smiling though.
"How?" I asked her, curiously.
"W-well," She stuttered and I knew something was up. "I just---"
I cut her off, looking deep into her eyes. "What's been said about me thats scaring you?"
Her eyes widened as if she couldn't believe that I had guessed what was on her mind.
"Tell me and I'll tell you the truth." I say.
"People have been saying that you're a...." She stops.
"I'm a???" I ask, urging her on.
"A killer...." She says and her eyes meet mine with slight fear.
My frown disappeared and instead was replaced with a soothing expression.
"I can assure you that I'm not a killer." I say.
"Then why are people saying these things about you?" She asks and I sigh.
"Madison, I can't tell you right now--But youhave to trust me!" I said softly, taking her hands in mine.
I wanted so desperately for her to believe me, but the cautious/fearful look in her eyes said it all.
No matter how much I'd try to persuade her, I knew how this was going to end.
"No--Just stop!" She said jerking away from me.
My eyes looked into hers pleading her to listen and trust me.
"I can't tell you just yet, but I'm not a killer!" I say honestly.
"I'm your girlfriend, don't I have a right to know these things?" She said, frowning at me.
"I want to go home--I'm going home!" She said and immediately started walking towards the door.
"You've never really truly trusted me have you?" I ask her, frowning. "If you did trust me, you wouldn't be walking away right now!"
She turned. "I don't trust my feelings at the moment Harry. Want to know why? It's because I've never felt like this, because I'm a 'player'. I date boys and then later on ditch them, but I can't ditch you---I'm just too scared right now because of all of my feelings! I have to get out of here!"
She practically ran out the door and I knew better than to chase after her.
My shoulders slumped and I sighed.
How the heck could this happen?!
I was upset--How long had she been hiding these rumours from me?
But then there's the 'player' part.
She wasn't ditching me...She was just scared of what might happen---Her feelings were overwhelming her.
There was no telling how long I stood there, but it was for a very long time.