I take a deep breath and take off the necklace Ashton gave me. I put it in my desk drawer and leave my room. Jay follows and I find the guys sitting on the couch in the great room. Luke smiles at me and I smile back. I go into the kitchen and sit at the counter island,looking outside. Luke comes in and I smile. Michael comes in and grabs a sugar cookie. I follow him and Luke to the great room. I'm guessing they don't know me and Luke are a thing. I sit beside Luke and Ashton looks at the floor. Calum,Michael,and Ash go down to the basement to play FIFA and Luke passes and stays upstairs with me. "Do they know?" I whisper. "Calum does,I'm not sure about the other two though." He whispers back and I nod. He kisses me and I smile. I play with Jay and Ashton comes upstairs. I look at him as he stops and waits for the others. "That wasn't a very long game of FIFA." Luke comments. Calum shrugs. "Okay,guys. Time for you to leave." Michael tells the guys. "Bye." Luke says and leaves with Ashton and Calum. I wave as they leave. "So,you and Luke together huh?"Michael asks. I sigh. "Calum?" He nods. "Ash knows?" He nod again. "Was Ash mad?" "Speechless." He says. "Are you mad?" "No,not really." "Why?" "Cause I know stuff you don't." "What do you know that I don't?" "Can't tell you." "Why-" "Okay,stop with all the questions." We laugh. "Okay." Michael goes to his room and sit and look out the bay window at the snow falling down.
I put my head on Luke's shoulder and Calum invites Ashton inside. "So." Michael says and silence fills the air. We just sit there and do nothing. I can hear the adults talking in the kitchen and Lauren and Harry playing with Mali Koa and Jack,even though Mali and Jack are way older than them. But,oh well. The group of friends that used to never stop talking,just......stopped. I'm not sure why though. Ashton and I should still be friends considering I didn't do anything and he should just leave his nosy ass out of my business and believe me but no. And I admit,yes,it was kinda sorta my fault because I blurted it out and yes,I did lie to him,but still,I didn't kiss nobody. But him. And Luke. But that doesn't matter........I still like Ashton though. But I like Luke. I've always like Luke....I'd guess you'd say that. Back to reality,I'm still sitting beside Luke,my head on his shoulder,Michael on the other side of Luke and Ashton sitting beside Calum on the couch across from us. Christmas Day was filled with joy last year,(But also fear because of Terrance) but I guess things have changed since Allison passed away. Why'd she have to leave me with such an awkward situation. All though she always said Luke and I would be a good couple,but she also said that about me and Calum,which I don't understand. I guess I'll video chat or just text Louis tonight or something asking him for help and maybe the other boys can help,too,and by boys,I mean One Direction. It's hard to focus on reality while I'm planning things and making notes in my head,like this were some kind of movie or book,but that's absurd and life is not a book or movie. Calum brings up,of course,the tour. The guys start talking and I'm sitting there,still silent. I ponder in the fact of hanging out with Mali or Jack,but they are hanging out with Ashton's siblings,of course. Do they even know me and Ash broke up? Probably. I bet the fans do too. I haven't been on social media in awhile so they probably are screaming at me through their phones and computers and tablets. Why did Calum have to bring up the band? They can talk about that any other time,where I'm not around,so I'm not stuck listening to their conversation.
"Why do you need our help?" Niall asks me. "I don't know what to do,guys." I say,frowning. Louis smiles at me through the screen. "Easy,who have you liked the longest?" "Ashton?" "Why are you questioning it?" Harry asks,his face stuffed with food,which is funny because Niall loves food. "I don't know." I shrug. "Look,just talk to Luke about it." Zayn tells me. "It's not that easy." I tell them. "Just slowly bring it up. I'm sure he'll understand. Then tell Ashton the truth. Bada Bing. Bada Boom." Liam smiles and I nod slowly. "Okay. Talk to you later." I say and they log off. I close my computer and go downstairs. Luke pulls me aside. "You still like Ashton." He whispers. "How'd?" "I know all." I smile. "You're alright with this?" "Of course." "Good." "Good." "We're through?" I ask. He nods. He pushes me over to Ashton and I tell the truth. "I only lied to you because I wanted Max to be safe." "I should've trusted you. I'm sorry." "I'm sorry too." "We good?" "We good."
So,today's been....okay. And I'm back together with Ash. Which is cool. I told Louis and he sent back a smiley face. I'm currently lying in bed,staring at the ceiling,in the dark. School starts up again in a week. Crazy. I sigh.
a/n: Emuke as died. I'm sorry.