(n) a person who is willing to forgive abuse the first time, tolerate it the second time, but never the third time
I finally got home and I couldn't wait to just chill out for the rest of the day. The whole situation with Chloe had freaked me out a little bit. I'd thought it through and maybe I shouldn't be fucking too much with Calum's friends if I wanted to eventually be one of them. But once again, Chloe didn't seem like the sharpest tool in the shed. What damage could she really do? Besides, I hadn't really done anything but tell her the truth.
On my way to my room Parker suddenly showed up in the hallway. His light brown hair was quite messy, and he was wearing gray sweatpants and a white fitted t-shirt.
"Hey, can we take a walk?" he asked, shoving his hands in his pockets. His voice was croaky. He'd probably been sleeping most of the day, but he did have a rough night, so that kind of justified it.
"I literally just got home, can't we just wait a few hours", I sighed, running a hand through my hair.
"Please?" Parker kept on. It was Saturday and as he didn't have work on the weekends, so he was probably just bored. It was probably good for us to spend some time together after the fight we had anyway. I really wanted us to make up soon, but it really was him that had been a jerk.
"Fine, let's go then", I answered, shaking my head a bit. I really didn't want to, but I also didn't want to be a baby about it. Maybe Parker actually intended to apologize for being annoying this morning. He owed me that.
So we went out and just walked in silence for a bit. I didn't know what this was about, but maybe it wasn't about anything. I'd been stressing so much lately, I didn't want to stir this into something it wasn't. Yet. But we'd been walking around downtown for at least ten minutes when Parker finally broke the silence between us.
"So", he sighed.
"So", I repeated. Then I looked at him, but he was hard to read. I knew him so well, or at least I thought so, but he'd been acting weird during the past few days. Maybe something really was up with him.
"How was work?" he asked. I didn't mind his question at all, but something was still strange about the entire situation. I just couldn't exactly put my finger on it.
"It was good. You remember that girl Chloe though?" I asked, raising one of my eyebrows. He didn't seem to have cared that much about her in the club the night before, but still.
"Well, I ran into her on my way home. Quite literally. I don't know what her problem is, seriously." I couldn't help but snort a bit. I wanted to just be completely nonchalant whenever she came up, but she pushed my buttons in all the wrong ways. I couldn't help it.
"Did you talk?" Parker asked, not seeming too interested. I chose not to comment on it though, as there was no need to start yet another argument.
"You could say that. She's so far up Calum's ass, it's pathetic", I answered, rolling my eyes. Parker immediately sighed when I mentioned Calum, once again making me think that he had some sort of problem with him, which I really didn't get.
"Why did you talk about Calum?" he asked almost as soon as I'd finished talking.
"I think she thinks that she owns him or something. She definitely thinks that I'm trying to take him away from her." I didn't like Calum hanging around with her, that was true. He seriously needed some better friends. At least the one's I'd met had had been awful, but I wouldn't dare to tell him who to hang out with though. I didn't want to be that girl.
"Are you?" Parker asked. I snorted once again.
"Why does everybody think that?!" My voice got ten times higher than usual as I spoke, but it really did frustrate me. I couldn't quite figure out how I felt about Calum, but I definitely cared about him. At the same time, everybody else for some reason thought that it was their business too.
"Well, you did kiss last night", Parker answered.
"You saw that?" I asked, suddenly wanting to disappear. It was hard enough not to cringe when I thought about it, the thought of the fact that Parker had witnessed it only made it worse. Even though Calum had kissed me, he'd also just left me. What if I'd done something wrong? It had felt kind of like a rejection, and I must admit that it hurt a bit.
"Yeah. I went out to get some water and happened to catch you two being all over each other", he answered. It seemed like he was slipping into that facade he'd had on earlier.
"We just kissed, would you calm down?" I asked, frowning a little bit. He acted like an actual child every time we talked about Calum, and it had started to get on my nerves, especially since he usually was the one to bring it up.
"Do you like him or something?"
That question made me stop walking as it felt like it hit me right in the face. Was this seriously what he brought me all this way to hear me out on?
"Why do you care so much?" I asked, tilting my head a bit to the side as I just stood there, looking at him.
Parker stopped walking as well, and we just stood there looking at each other for a second before he finally answered.
"We're friends, right? I just thought caring about each other was something friends did", he answered.
"But this is obsessive, Parker! And if it really bothers you that much, let me tell you what actually happened. I asked him to kiss me, okay? And he did. But then he fucking left, so even if I did like him, he obviously doesn't like me back!"
I'd completely snapped and the words came pouring out of me. It was more than I'd even let myself think of the situation. I sounded bitter as hell, and you know what, maybe I was. Maybe it really did bother me that Calum didn't want me, but it didn't mean anything.
"You do like him, don't you?" Parker asked, also tilting his head to the side. His voice just got kind of quiet, and if I didn't know better, I'd think that he looked a bit hurt. But why would he be hurt? I should be the one who was hurt.
I didn't have an answer to that, but I felt like I needed to get out of the situation. Immediately. It was just too much to handle, and I felt like I was drowning in a mixture of my thoughts and my emotions. Parker being so annoying about it didn't help at all.
"Go home, Parker. Seriously", I mumbled, before storming off the pavement and on to the street in an attempt to cross, but suddenly everything went extremely fast.
I felt myself being pulled back over the curb, just as a car passed no more than a few centimeters from where I'd just been standing.
"Watch out", I heard a low voice say behind me. As I just stood there for a second, I could feel his body pressed against my back, before he let go of his grib on my wrist. My heart was beating like crazy in my chest and it felt like my head was spinning after the near-death experience I'd just had, but I would still be able to recognize that voice anywhere.
Then I turned around and found myself standing right in front of Calum.
"Why do you keep doing that?" I asked. It felt like I was out of breath, as I was still in some kind of chock.
"Doing what?" He answered. We were standing so close I could smell his cologne, and it brought me back to the night before. Having him touch me, the feeling of his lips against mine. Then I shook my head, not wanting to think about it.
"Making it look like I can't take care of myself", I answered. A small smirk spread across his lips, but before any of us could do anything we were interrupted.
"What the fuck, El!" It was Parker and he was shouting. He shot Calum a short look, before somehow pushing Calum away and stepping in between us. "You could've gotten yourself killed."
"Yeah well, I'm okay, thank you for asking." I answered sarcastically. Parker was probably just chocked as well, but I'd had enough of him for now. He was just too much.
Parker just rolled his eyes a me, before taking a step back and turning towards Calum.
"What are you even doing here?" he asked, his face definitely not filled with gratitude or anything like it.
"Parker, seriously, what is wrong with you?" I asked, walking out from behind him.
"What's wrong with me?" he asked, raising his eyebrows. "What's up with him? He's always just randomly showing up whenever it's convenient, don't you think it's a bit strange?"
Then Calum finally took part in the conversation.
"Well at least I'm not the one fucking standing around whenever she needs me", he said. He was obviously annoyed as well. Parker wasn't himself at all and I didn't understand why. It was like he was pushing me away, and of course it was upsetting me. We were supposed to be best friends but I could barely recognize him anymore.
"And what exactly do you mean by that?" Parker spat, taking a step closer to Calum, trying to seem intimidating.
"That you're fucking pathetic, man. Could you not feel sorry for yourself like some little bitchboy for once?" Calum answered, and for a second I was afraid that they were going to get into a fight. None of us needed that.
For a moment there was just silence, the tension thick enough to cut through.
"Whatever, dude. But don't you fucking think for a second that you can just come walking into our life, fucking it all up", Parker said quietly before turning to me. "You coming?" He asked, nodding his head towards the direction that we came from.
"Fuck off, Parker." I sighed. I wasn't going to just keep tolerating it every single time he was being an asshole. It just didn't work for me anymore.
Parker didn't even hesitate before just leaving me with Calum, but if I wasn't completely wrong, I'd seen him get teary eyed just before he ran off.