Koi no yokan
(n) the feeling you get when you meet someone for the first time and you think you're going to fall in love with them
I felt hazed when I got out of the men's room, but still managed to make my way into a crowd of people in an attempt to avoid Calum. His sudden change of character had scared the hell out of me, and I figured that I'd only angered him even more by leaving. Something told me it wouldn't have ended well if I'd stayed. He'd never hurt my ever, but one time had to be the first.
I quickly turned around as Calum's voice boomed through the room. A few other people looked in his direction too, but seemed to loose interest quite quickly.
"Shit", I whispered and turned around to get out of there only to bump into somebody, making them drop the glass they had in their hand, smashing it on the floor. "Oh my God, I'm so sorry", I frantically said as I bent down to pick up the pieces of broken glass.
"Don't bother, you'll cut yourself."
I got up and finally looked at the person in front of me. It was a guy. He was quite a lot taller than me, had dark, messy hair, green eyes and a hint of stubble. I didn't have the time to say anything else when I felt a hand on my shoulder, making me turn around only to face Calum instead.
"We weren't done", he growled.
"Leave me alone", I answered and took a step back only to feel my back hit the stranger's chest. But then he pushed me to the side and stepped between me and Calum.
"What's going on?" He said. His voice was deep and something about him made me feel safe. Safer at the least
"That's none of your business", Calum answered and rolled his eyes before attempting to move past him, but the stranger just stepped to the side as well, blocking his way once again.
"She told you to leave her alone", he continued. I just stayed behind him with no clue of what was going on around me. I'd taken so much shit lately, this was just too much. There seemed to be no trace of the old Calum left and I had to seek protection from a stranger in fear of him hurting me. Things had taken a turn from bad to worse.
"What the hell is your problem, dude?" Calum asked and frowned, stepping closer to the stranger.
"You're my problem."
Calum clenched his fists for a second, but then I guess he decided it wasn't worth it.
"I'll see you later, Ella", he then sighed and shot me a sharp look before finally walking off.
"I'm really sorry about that", I said as the guy turned around towards me once again, but he just shrugged.
"You're not the one who should be sorry," he answered, "Ella, right?"
"Yeah, what about you?"
"I'm Matthew, but you can call me Matt."
Then we just had this moment of looking at each other. He was really handsome, and even thought it definitely felt like the wrong place and the wrong time, I couldn't help but jump to conclusions.
"So, uh, who was that? If you don't mind me asking of course", Matt asked and nodded in the direction that Calum had disappeared in.
"My... I guess he's my ex. I don't even know", I answered and frowned. "It's complicated."
"I see", he answered and nodded. "Anyway, were you here together, or?"
"No, I'm here with my friend, but I don't know where he is. I should probably give him a call."
"We can go outside if you want?" Matt suggested. Maybe it was weird to suddenly rely on this guy, but it was better than nothing. Calum had turned psycho and Parker was nowhere to be found as usual. It was nice to have somebody around.
"Yeah, let's do that."
So we walked outside, and when I pulled out my phone, I saw that I had five missed calls from Parker. I then called him back only to find out that he'd taken a cab home since he couldn't find me. I was too tired to even be angry that he'd just leave me behind knowing that Calum and I weren't on good terms, so I just told him that I'd see him at home and then I hung up.
"You leaving?" Matt asked and shoved his hands in the pockets of his jacket.
"Yeah, I think it's for the best", I answered and shrugged. "Thanks, though, for everything."
"Well, do you want a ride home? I've only had one drink, don't worry", he continued just as I was about to start walking. I had to admit that it would be nice, but every single one of my instincts told me not to take the offer. My tired mind and congested heart said the opposite.
"That would be nice actually", I hesitantly answered, not sure of how I felt about the situation, but there was something trustworthy about him. We'd only known each other for a matter of minutes and he'd already had my back more than once. It was more than I could say about a lot of people.
He actually seemed surprised when I agreed to it, but then a bright smile lit up his face, making me smile a bit as well.
"Oh... Great, yeah, my car's parked right down the street from here."
So we got in the car and he turned the ignition, turning on the radio at the same time as the motor. Soft music filled the inside of the vehicle and I leaned back and let out a sigh. It had been a long night with a lot of events that I would've liked to have avoided. There was nothing to do about it now, though.
"Is he always like that?" Matt suddenly answered, his eyes constantly on the road. I figured he was referring to Calum.
"No, not at all. I don't know what happened."
"No matter what he shouldn't be acting like that", Matt continued.
"I know, but I don't want to spend any more time worrying about him", I answered and shook my head. That was true. I'd spent so much of my time worrying, regretting, missing. All because of Calum who couldn't even treat me right when he didn't get it his way. Whatever his way was. He'd tried to explain, and I guess that I'd understood, but I couldn't take him seriously. He fucked me over and then shows up intoxicated when trying to make it right. He was a piece of shit.
"So... Uhm... Are you seeing anyone at the moment then?" Matt asked and bit down on his lower lip.
"I... Guess not. I've recently gotten out of a thing with that guy, you know", I answered and ran my fingers through my hair before turning my gaze on him. His green eyes lit up every time we passed a street light, and the way his jet black hair fell down his forward and slightly in front of his eyes seemed way too familiar. I guess I had a type.
"You could say that."
Then there was quiet after than, but not in an awkward way. It was nice with the music and all, so I just leaned back and closed my eyes for a second, just to open them again. The sun had almost set outside and there weren't a whole lot of people out. It was peaceful.
"Why are you doing this?" I quietly asked and looked back at Matt.
"What do you mean?"
Then he smiled a bit but hesitated to answer. He had a nice smile, it seemed to light up his face.
"I just believe in being a decent human being."
I couldn't help but smile a bit, but I still knew nothing about Matthew at all, and I knew all of this was a risky, but I had made the decision to trust him. I couldn't overcome anything else right now. There was nothing else to do but take it all one moment at a time and I had a feeling I'd be alright around Matt, though. Sometimes you just had to trust your gut.
"So... Where are you from, Matt? I can't help but notice your accent", I asked with a smile, changing the subject completely.
"New York", he answered and laughed a bit before he shot me a quick look.
"What brings you here, then?"
"Work. They even gave me this sweet apartment downtown", he answered and raised his eyebrows for a second.
"You'll have to show me sometime", I said, not really thinking anything of it even though it kind of sounded like I was hitting on him. For a second he just looked at me, a smile growing on his lips, but then the traffic light switched to green and he looked back out on the road.
"I'd love to."
After about fifteen minutes of driving Matt pulled up outside of the apartment building where I lived.
"Thank you so much", I said as I unbuckled my seatbelt and opened the car door.
"Oh, wait," he started when I was about to get out, "could I maybe get your number?"
I just looked at him for a moment, not knowing wether or not I was ready for somebody new, and if Matt could even be that person, but I guess trying it out would be the best way to find out. Besides, Calum didn't deserve any more of my time and energy. Not anymore. It was time to pass it on to somebody who appreciated it.
"Sure", I answered and he let out a relieved sigh, making the corners of my mouth curl up in a small smile. Then he gave me his phone and I gave him my number. "Call me", I added as I returned his phone, before leaning in and planting a quick kiss on his cheek. Then I finally got out of the car and walked inside.