(adj) quivering, trembling
Calum had insisted on following me all the way home, even though I'd told him numerous times that I didn't need him to babysit me. He constantly had this grip on my wrist, as if he was afraid I'd run off if he let me go. I probably would too. I was actually having fun at the party until he'd screwed around with Chloe, and pparently I hadn't been allowed to get any action myself. Not that I really wanted to get with Will that bad, but that wasn't the point. He was treating me like shit, and I was not having it.
We'd taken the bus home, and we finally arrived at the stop where we would be getting off, and so we did. It only took us about five minutes to walk from the busstop to the apartment building, but as I was walking inside to the stairway he followed me. I'd figured that he would just leave me at the door, probably just to go back to Chloe, but that was not the case.
I got to the first step of the staircase before I turned around just to find him right in front of me. He was standing so close that I could feel his hot breath on my skin.
"What are you doing?" I asked, my heart beating faster. I couldn't help but let my gaze fall on his lips, before quickly returning it to his eyes. I didn't want him to have this effect on me. I could despise him one moment and he'd make me weak in the knees the next.
"Walking you to the door", he answered and shrugged. The tone in his voice wasn't as harsh as it was earlier, but it probably helped that I wasn't shouting at him anymore either. The whole situation had kind of calmed down, but I definitely hadn't forgotten what had happened.
I didn't get why he would walk me all the way, but I also didn't want to question it, so I just turned around and walked all the way up to my apartment, where I unlocked the door and stepped inside. I turned around to say goodbye, but I didn't get to say anything, before I felt my body being pressed up against Calum's, his lips on my lips. I found myself kissing back until I finally collected myself enough to push him off.
I looked at him with confusion in my eyes, not knowing what to say, but he just closed the door behind him, inviting himself in. Then he returned his attention to me again, and we had just a moment of eye contact before he suddenly pushed me up against the wall. I could feel his lips on my neck, instantly making me shiver.
"You seriously think you can fuck around with my friends, huh?" he mumbled in between the kisses he left on my skin.
"You seemed too busy to notice", I answered, trying my best not to sound too affected by his actions, even though my body felt like it was igniting underneath his touch. Where all of this came from, I had no idea, but it was safe to say that I was enjoying myself.
"Why do you care so much about that?" he whispered, finally lifting his head to look me in the eyes. His normally brown eyes seemed black and they were slightly red. He'd told me that he didn't drink, so he'd probably been under the influence of something else. It didn't matter anyway.
"I could ask you the same question. Why wouldn't you let me be with Will?"
The alcohol in my blood made the words flow easier.
"Answer my fucking question", he growled as he leaned in, letting his lips brush across mine. The rough tone in his voice gave me chills. I wanted him more and more for every second that went by. To touch him, feel him. I didn't care about regretting it tomorrow, I didn't care about the fact that none of us were sober. I only cared for the moment, cared for him.
"She doesn't deserve you", I whispered. That was true. Chloe was the biggest bitch I'd ever met, and she didn't deserve being with Calum, but I didn't want to let the thought of her ruin this moment.
"Is that the only reason?" he mumbled. He was looking for something else and I knew that, but I wasn't going to give it to him that easily. He just wanted to hear me admit that I was jealous, but that was not going to happen.
"It's your turn to answer my question", I said quietly, letting my lips meet his in a short, sloppy kiss. The game we were playing was strange. It was like both of us knew we wanted more of each other, but even though we ended up here, we still wouldn't admit it.
"Because we both know that I could do you better", Calum whispered in between kisses, before sliding his hand down the side of my body, until he reached the edge of my jeans which he unbuttoned with ease. My thoughts were cloudy and my feelings were all over the place as he slid his hand down the front of my pants, touching me through the fabric of my panties. I threw my head back, resting the back of my head against the wall as he connected his lips with my neck once again.
"Ca- Calum, I think Parker's home", I moaned as it suddenly crossed my mind.
"I guess we'll just have to be quiet then", he mumbled against my skin. I was trembling at this point, barely being able to hold myself together, but I managed to nod. I didn't want this to end.
It didn't take long before I felt like I was going to burst, but then he pulled his hand out of my jeans and took a step away from me. I must've looked like a mess, I definitely felt like one. He seemed to enjoy seeing me like that though, judging by the cocky smile on his lips. For a second I began to fear that he was going to leave me like that. Leave me wanting more. He had a habit of leaving me hanging, but I wasn't going to let him this time around.
"You must be real proud of yourself, huh?" I panted, raising my eyebrows a bit. "Two girls in one night."
"Trust me, I am," he answered with a smirk, "but you know she didn't mean anything."
"And I do?" I asked and took a step away from the wall and closer to him. When I got close enough, I grabbed the fabric of his shirt and pulled him closer once again. I wanted him to say yes. I wanted to hear him say how he'd been wanting this for so long. But maybe that was just wishful thinking.
"You always will", he whispered, before grabbing the back of my neck and slamming his lips onto mine.