8. Oh no
I woke up the next morning actually feeling happy. That was new. Why wouldn't I be happy? For the first time in a long time, I didn't have anything to worry about! Every time I doubted myself I could just think, No, the monsters don't hate me! Or, No, no, I'm beautiful, not broken! I didn't want to cry, I wasn't filled with pain. Of course, why would anything good last that long? I was finally feeling confident for the first time since we got to the surface. But then, I got a text from Blooky. It was about our show later. Our show later. Later. As in, today. Nonono I can't do this, not today, I thought, feeling the confidence drain out of me as I sat on the edge of Papyrus' bed. What was I going to tell him? He doesn't know what's been going on! I'll just have to do the show. I haven't actually told anyone about this, they just found out. Ugh, how am I supposed to do a show?! I don't want it to be as bad as the shows I do alone, I don't want to get like that in front of Blooky, I don't want to do this. I heard Papyrus sit up. "Good morning, Mettaton!" he said cheerfully. I put my phone down, "Good morning, my darling." I tried to hide the dread I was feeling, but I could hear it in my own voice. He got up and sat next to me. "Mettaton, are you alright?" "Oh, yes, I'm alright, darling. I just have an... unexpected show tonight, it's fine." "A show? Are you sure you'll be okay performing now?" "Y-Yeah it's fine" I said, rubbing the back of my neck nervously, "I-I" I held my head in my hands, "This is going to be a disaster, Papy, I-I can't do this!" He put his hand on my shoulder, "You can, I believe in you!" "B-But what about the humans?" "Undyne, Alphys, and I can go with you!" His expression changed from a smile to a look of determination, "We'll make sure nobody misgenders you, or insults your body!" That wasn't the perfect plan, but it made me feel a lot better about performing. "Thank you, Papy, that sounds great."