Things changed after some time. we spoke on a daily basis. He asked me questions and always started conversations with me. Don’t get me wrong here, I am not trying to say he likes me. I know he behaves that way with everyone but I was just happy that he thinks am worth speaking to. I still liked him but it’s kind of different now. I watched him when he wasn’t looking and I still wanted to sit close to him and hear him talk but I have been able to find faults with the things he does. I guess that was progress! I felt he said boring stuffs a lot or should I say, he said stuffs I was not interested in. They say when you like someone, you find no fault in them and so I think that, little by little, I was beginning to lose interest.
Yet, the interest I lost is still so little. Am still shy to start a conversation, still scared to meet those shiny eyes and still scared of even admitting to myself that he might like me. To be honest, I don’t know! I read articles on those kind of stuffs daily but I still didn’t know. I told myself that his sudden eagerness to include me in conversations and also talk to me, has no special meaning. Maybe he was just being nice but why now? Why didn’t he behave this way with me a long time ago or did he just realize that I existed? I was pretty sure he doesn’t like me though, if he did he would have told me already. Maybe to him, I was just a girl he wants to be friends with as he was with everyone. I guess that’s not a bad idea but I wasn’t sure if I could actually be friends with someone I liked, yet I was willing to give it a shot.