4. Chapter Three
Jung Kook’s heat was over and I really had to go home. Not because I wanted but my mother was so excited to know if I had any pups inside me. Normally you would could ask the alpha, but since it was myself, I would not be able to feel it. However, I knew I was not. First, I was on birth control and second, it was not because of my heat I had not been home. But she insisted. So I went along even thought I had not been to school the last week before vacation. Heat was one thing you could not stay home with, but what if you had found you mate? Some of my friends had not been to school the first week after, but was that aloud? It must have been because the school never did call me. Or maybe my father had called in and told them I was sick. He would do so for me I knew. I never ever had had any feelings for anyone beside my dad. Maybe I would had some for my mother when I was younger but that was definitely before my first heat. After that day it felt like when she saw me it was as if I was a piece of meat.
This was what I was. Something to make her perfect little babies that would probably be one or two girls that would not be Alphas. I did go with her, and as I thought no pups. Jet I thought Jung Kook would have said. “Next time you are in heat maybe” My mother said. She really wanted me to have babies in an age at eighteen. Jung Kook was 21 years old and he was happy as long as I was which exactly made me happy. I did make a secret deal with him that maybe I would stop taking birth control and that maybe when it was my turn to be spoiled something would happen. He had given me a big hug even though it was only a maybe. I was done with school for now and I had made that one promise to myself that if I got pups I would stay home as much as I could until they were three years old. “You can go hope to what his name again,” My mother had said. My father had insisted in me staying with Jung Kook and my mother did not seem to care. However, I knew I had to be with my friends just to make sure they were still alive. Jung Kook would understand me. I kept telling myself to be more Alpha like because I had to be the protector even when I would be pregnant. There would not be long for my own heat so I had to live a little.
I went to the park without anyone knowing and just stood there for some seconds. Everything I Normally would do I did not do anymore. So, this was not a normal thing. I looked over at a place where some kids played. It made me smile because they looked so happy and without any worries about their lives. I could not say the same thing, but no one was actually forcing me to do something I would not want to. I actually choose Jung Kook because of my feelings and not because I just had to find a mate. He had chosen me too. Once again, no need to worry. My mother had forced to take care of me what so ever I would probably love to have her around if I decided to get pups. My grandmother loved me despite how I was born. Actually, despite everything, I was, she and my dad loved me. Even though, I had never been together with her since I was 5 years old. Therefore, I did not know if I loved her.
I turned around with my thoughts only to catch someone looking at me. The person saw I had seen him and started to walk towards me. I did not know who it was. He started to run forward against me and I still do not know why I did not move. I froze and stand with my head held high as he turned to a wolf in public. No one had looked over at us, but when he in a jump attached, I screamed.