"No" I said, completely out of breath.
"Do you need a ride?" He asked, and honestly his cute ass face made me forget what I was doing for a second.
"Umm" Should I tell him? Dammit, I'll never make it to Tanner's house in time if I don't have a ride there "Ya, kinda" I said, and he motioned for me to hop in.
"Where to?" He asked, and my conscious told me not to tell him, but my brain went with telling him, even though I know they don't like each other at all "Tanner Pellerin's" I said that and my heart sank to my stomach seeing his reaction. He actually looked a little crushed.
"I thought you guys broke up though" He said, trying to hold up his composer.
"Well ya, but Jake is kind of on his way to beat the shit out of him" I know I shouldn't be defending Tanner at all, but I don't need Jake to do this for me when I'm perfectly capable to do it myself.
"Serves the asshole right!" He yelled a little which startled me a little.
"Hey, just because you don't like him, doesn't mean you can say that shit to me" I raised my voice, but that didn't stop him.
"You bet your ass I don't fuckin like him. Last night while you were sleeping at my house he tried getting in a fight with me, telling me that your his and no one else's. He tried telling me that you're his. he told me to stay away from you, as if I could. How can he tell someone to stay the hell away from you when he can't even take his own advice" He said that and I was shocked at what he had to say about him.
"He said all that?" I asked, and right after I did I finally realized what he really said.
"Ya, I never liked him before, but now I really don't like him, and he's out of his mind if he thinks I'm going to listen to him" He said, and I never thought I'd ever hear him say that to me. I thought I'd only hear that in my dreams.
"Why would you say that?" I asked in confusion. I don't know why he would like me so much. It's not like I'm something special, I'm just me.
"Because I thought that we kind of hit it off last night" He said, and I came to the sudden realization that this was all just about the sex, like every other guy on Earth.
"Wow" Is all I said for a second "And I thought you were different" There was so much attitude put into that sentence that I don't think anyone could have topped that.
"Oh my god, no, that's not what I meant, I swear. I meant when we were just talking and stuff" Classic.
I gave him that "you better not be shitting me" look "You better not be lying" I said.
"No, I'm serious, I mean ya the sex was fucking awesome, but you seam like a really cool person, so why in the hell would I want to stay away from you" I guess I can trust him on his word, he seamed pretty genuine.
I tried not to, but I think I blushed a little "You think I'm cool? I always thought I was pretty lame" Otherwise why would all my boyfriends leave me or cheat on me?
"Of course, if anything I'm pretty lame compared to you" He said. Classic...again. He's trying way too hard.
We pulled up to Tanners house and I bolted out of the car to the front door knowing Jake was definitely giving him a piece of his mind.
"Shit!" I yelled to myself.
"What?" Ashton asked right next to me.
"His parents aren't home that's what" I started running through the door only to find Jake pinning Tanner to the wall with a fist to his face.
"Jake!" I yelled and ran over to him "Get off!"
"Jule get out of here. You don't need to see this" He raised his voice in the way that I don't like, because when it's like that, it means he's too far gone to listen to me.
"No, she can stay, but Ashton needs to get the fuck out" Tanner said, and Jake looked even more pissed off than he already was.
"Shut up!" Jake yelled "Ashton, get her out of here. She doesn't need to see this fucker get what he deserves"
Ashton put his arm around me but I just shrugged it off "No, I'm not going anywhere!" I yelled.
"Yes you are! He's never going to talk to you like that ever again and get away with it" In a split second his fist met Tanner's gut and he tried to keel over in pain, but Jake held him up.
"Stop!" I yelled, paralyzed in shock "Get off!"
"Juliet, come on" Ashton said in a soothing way, grabbing my hand.
"No" I said, almost crying "Jake, stop it! Please!"
He just kept throwing punches left and right till Tanner looked like a bloody mess. I'm not gonna lie, it hurts to see Tanner like this. I loved him more than anything at one point and I still have a soft spot for him deep down. I can't just stop caring about someone who meant the world to me, that's just not me. You can call me an idiot, but that's just how I am.
After too many punches to count I fell to floor wanting to cry "Sto-ha-ha-op" I said, sobbing.
I felt hands put me in a cradle, so I looked up and saw Ashton "Come on, you don't need to see this. He's not going to stop" I know he's right, so I didn't struggle at all, I just let him carry me out to his car. He set me down on his hood and I looked right into his eyes. You know how they say "the eyes are the window to the soul", I believe that now. I could tell he was being sincere about everything. That he might actually care about me a little.
"Tanner is such a douche" I said under my breath.
"What did he do this time?" He asked "I'm guessing it was something really bad for Jake to freak out like this"
"He wouldn't stop harassing me this morning. He kept texting me like every thirty seconds calling me every name under the sun and how I'm his, and how I'll never find someone who will provide for me like he did, and shit" I started crying now, even though I was really holding back. I whipped out my phone and opened up messenger to show him.
He started scrolling though all the texts and I could tell he was getting more and more pissed by the second "Jule, why would try and stop Jake?"
"I don't know, because I guess I still care about him deep down a little" I looked down in disappointment of myself "I can't just stop caring about someone I cared about more than anything at one point"
He looked at me and definitely thinks I'm crazy "How can you care about someone who degrades you like that?" Great, just another person completely disappointed in me.
"I never said that I love him. I just don't want to see him hurt is all" I looked down even more, almost cradling my head in my lap.
"I guess I get it, but you can't let him treat you like this ok" He said and sat down on the car too.
I looked up at him and he was inches away from my face. Normally I would have backed away, but I was completely frozen. He kept moving closer and closer, but I just stayed in place. Before I thought his lips were going to meet mine...he set his forehead on mine and looked into my eyes. I could hear all the yelling from inside, but I just blocked it all out, because in this moment I'm in peace.
He started to crack a small smile "Look at my little cyclops"
I giggled a little "Same to you"
Out of the corner of my eye I saw Jake walking to his car. I looked away from Ashton and Jake gave me a small smile than drove off.
Not even a second later Tanner walked out all bloody and gross "What the fuck is this shit?" He said, walking over to us "Get the fuck off my property"
"Gladly" Ashton said, and got into the drivers seat, so I started to go to the passenger seat.
"Not you" Tanner said, raising his voice "I need you to stay"
"Like hell you do" Ash replied, but I just stood in the same spot I was in.
"Shut the fuck up" Tanner yelled "Jule, I need you" I know he's just manipulating me, but that spot in my heart wakes up when he says shit like that.
"Jule, get in the car" Ashton said "You know he's just saying that"
"I told you to shut the fuck up" Tanner said, getting that scary look in his eyes.
"Tanner, no" Is all I said before getting in the car.
He drove away and Tanner's face was priceless. I had just crushed his soul. I have never once told him no like that and it shows.
"So you don't hate me?" Jake asked.
"No, of course not, you were just defending me, but next time, just let me deal with it, ok" I said with a small smile.
"Ok, but I get at least one punch in next time" He gave me a small chuckle so I know he's completely calm now.
"Ok, just one" I replied and than we both went up to our rooms.
I plopped down on my bed and took out my phone from my pocket. I hadn't realized it, but my friend Tyler had texted me saying that he's having a party tonight. I didn't know if I should go, just in case Tanner shows up. I highly doubt he will, but you never know, so I said maybe.
Just as I sent that I got a text from Ashton "Hey, you wanna come over and hang out?"
"Ya, sure :)" I replied and walked downstairs "I'll be there in a few"
"Jake, I'm using the car!" I yelled to him.
"Ok!" He yelled back.
I walked up to the door, rang the doorbell, and he was there in a second "Hey" He said.
"Hey, so what did you wanna do?" I asked. Probably the stupidest question ever.
"Umm, I don't know, I didn't think I'd get this far" He said and I raised my eyebrows a little.
"What do you mean? Why wouldn't I hang out with you?" I replied.
"I don't know, I just thought that you think I'm boring or something" He said, so I walked in, getting out of the cold.
"No, your actually pretty cool"
He smiled at that "Really?"
"Yes, now let's watch some tv or something" I said, walking over to the couch in the living room "You clean up pretty good" I looked around the room at how pristine it is.
"Ya, if I don't my mom'll shoot me" He said, turning on the tv and handing me the remote.
Half way through the movie The Dark Knight I realized that I had been getting closer and closer to him. He was totally engrossed in the tv, so I just stared at him and all his gorgeousness. A minuet later he noticed me staring, so in turn I blushed hardcore "What? Do I have something on my face?" He asked in confusion.
I giggled a little "No" I leaned in close to his face, staring at his lips than to his eyes again. I just can't help myself.
He fallowed my lead and planted his lips on mine and it was sure bliss. Honestly I never want this to end. I've never felt anything like it when I kiss him. All my other boyfriends never felt like this. It makes me feel like I'm connected to him on another level. Maybe because I had only ever pictured this happening in my dreams, who knows. All I know is that I need this in my life. I don't know if this is what love is supposed to feel like or lust, but either way, it feels too good to give up.