I looked at my phone. I still had the message typed. The one that explained EVERYTHING! "jake- Please please PLEASE forgive me. I miss you so much. I can't live without you. Every day it's hard to breathe. I need you. Please wait for me. I will come back. I promise on my life. I need you to breathe. I miss you. ~Leah." I read it and started crying. That was typed a year ago. Ugh. My monsters were telling me to go get a knife, but my angles, they told me the scars will heal. This time, they won't. There is a gash in my heart and it won't heal. This is why I HATE love. Love, It's like a scar. The wounds will heal, but there will always be a scar. I click send on the text, but it fails to send. I try again. It sends. Maybe this was supposed to happen. I always skip school now. depression, it sucks. Just leave me alone. But my monsters, they are darkly comforting me. "Just leave me alone!" I scream at the monsters in my head. I had no one anymore. No one. Dan and David and Kayle moved away after David and Mom got divorced. Mom is always working, Payton is going to a private school in fall and Hayden is always with Cal. My birthday is next week, and I know I'm going to be alone. Forever. Just me. In hell. Please, Jake, wait for me. Even though he probably moved on. Life is an eternal hell.