I wish I hadn't liked the kiss. I wish I had hated it and remained faithful to Leah, my first love. But I didn't hate it. And one month later, Bailey and I were a dating couple. I was getting angry at Leah for asking ME to wait for her to come back. So, what she meant was that I wasn't allowed to like any girls all through high school and maybe college. I wasn't allowed to go to prom and slow dance with someone I adored. I had to sit there like a dog and wait till my owner returned, all because she had told me to 'stay'. So I started to not feel as bad about dating Bailey. Leah was the one who left me, I didn't do anything to her. She should've been happy I was moving on.
But there were also times where I would lay in bed and try not to cry because of how much I missed Leah. I wanted her to know that I wanted to be right there beside her in her new home.
One day, when me and Bailey were at a coffee shop, she asked me a question that made me cringe.
"Do you still have feelings for Leah?"
"I don't really know how to answer that..." I responded quietly.
"Jake, I need to know. I want to make sure your heart isn't lingering anywhere else...before we get too serious."
"Bailey, I really like you. I'll admit, it has been hard for me to get over Leah, but I really do want to move on. I can't put my life on pause to wait for her to come back."
"Okay, Jake. Picture this. Right now, Leah walks into this coffee shop and announces that she is moving back in, in a different house. Would you leave me for her?" Bailey asked, staring into my eyes sadly.
I was speechless. I hadn't even thought about that.
"I don't know. I really don't know."
"Then I can't date you, Jake."
"Bailey!" I exclaimed.
"I need you. I need you all to myself. I'm not wasting my time in a relationship where somebody is using me as a safety net," she told me firmly.
"Just give me more time. One week! I'll have my decision then. I promise that to you, Lee," I said desperately.
"Okay. One week. And that's it, mister!" She tapped my nose.