16. Chapter 16
I followed Lexi out onto the balcony. We leaned against the railing and looked out over the New York skyline. I glanced over at Lexi who was in awe of the city of lights in front of us. I wanted nothing more than to take her in my arms and kiss her and tell her I loved her, but I couldn't. She had lied to me, and had done things she had promised me she wouldn't do.
"Alright. You said you wanted to explain, so explain. Why haven't you eaten for the past..." I paused to look down at my watch "76 days? Why'd you continue to cut after you promised me you wouldn't?" I was so angry at her, it took every fiber of strength I had in my body not to start yelling at her.
"The anorexia wasn't just the past 76 days, it has been there for a while now and It's been hard and I'm trying, I'm getting help, but I can't just start eating again. The marks on my wrists were how long we'd be in America. And the fresh cuts, well I didn't tell you for obvious reasons, last time you saw them you left me and I almost died, I didn't want you to leave me again." She explained. I didn't say anything at first. She inhaled deeply and locked eyes with me.
"Lexi." I breathed her name softly and pulled her into my arms. "You should've told me. You forget, I was in the same place you were. You should've trusted that I love you enough not to leave you." I spoke softly into her ear, stroking her long brown hair. I heard crying quietly into my shoulder and made my embrace tighter, she pulled back and wiped the tears off of her face.
"You still love me?" She gasped between sobs.
I smiled and placed my hands on the side of her face and at that moment, as I kissed her deeply, fireworks lit up the New York sky. It was almost like it was magic.