1. Chapter 1
Today is July 16th. It's my best friends 17th birthday today. Too bad I can't be there. I've known him 12 years now. I've loved him all 12 years since day one. I know everything about him and he knows everything about me. We were inseparable. A little too late now. For his birthday he didn't want anything or want to go anywhere but I got him something anyway. Something that he can remember me by. I couldn't wrap his present so I put a ribbon on it. I left the shop and put his present in the car. I got in and drove off. I drove by all the streets remembering how Luke and I would goof around. I finally pulled up to this driveway. God I'll miss him. I'll miss this place. I grabbed his present and got out of the car. I put his present with a note attached to it at his doorway. I rang his doorbell and ran back to my car. I drove off. I would've loved to see Luke's face when he saw that new electric guitar he has wanted since he was 12. God I hate the world. Why did my dad get a new job in another country? Why couldn't I stay here in Australia while my mom and dad went to America? Why? I left Luke a note since I didn't have time to say goodbye. He won't open it until 2 days from now. I'll be long gone. He will be devastated. He will call me wanting answers on why I didn't say goodbye. Unfortunately I won't answer the phone if he calls. I don't want to see or hear him break. It would kill me. The one thing I care about most is breaking and it is because of me. God I hate everything. I love Luke with every fiber of my being and I don't want to see him break. I'm already broken. I'm so sorry Luke I truly am. I'm so so sorry. I get to the airport where my parents are waiting. I'll miss everything more importantly I'll miss Luke. Why? Why did this happen to me? "Flight 263 to New York is now boarding." Well that's us. When we board the plane all I do is look out the window. Goodbye Luke. I love you. Always have always will.
~2 days later~
Two days ago was my 17th birthday. My best friend had given me one of the best presents in the world. She knew I always wanted an electric guitar. She left a note attached and told me to open it in 2 days, well today. I opened the note.
I'm so sorry Luke. I really am. Luke I've known you for 12 years and I never thought I'd be saying this. Before I start I want to wish you a happy belated birthday. I'm so sorry I couldn't be there for your actual birthday. Luke just remember that we are best friends and nothing will separate us. Not even the fact that I now live in America. I know I know. How could I not say goodbye. I didn't want to ruin your 17th birthday. I didn't want to watch the one thing I love most break. I'm so sorry Luke. I really am. I got you that electric guitar because you wanted it for so long now. I remember the first time you saw it. I admit I was jealous. I knew it was a guitar but you looked at it with so much admiration. I wanted to grow old with you I wanted to call you mine. Luke I love you. Not just the friendly love. Like the I want to spend forever with you love. I love you with all of my heart Luke. I always have and I always will.
~ love you always Ashley xxxx
Why? I wish she said goodbye. GOD! I HATE EVERYTHING! Why did the love of my life have to move away? WHY? I love her with every fiber of my being. She's in America now. I'm broke. There is no way I'll see her again. I understand why she did what she did I would have done the same. How can I live without her? No wonder why she ignored me for 3 weeks. She wanted me to understand what it would be like without her. God I miss her. Fuck everything.