It's been two days since Caleb and I had nearly kissed. He and I are still talking, but we act like nothing happened and I want him to know how I feel. I'm not the type of person who is good at verbalizing how I feel. I should've dated Caleb when he confessed how he felt about me which I don't know why I didn't. I guess I just needed some time. Whatever. Sometimes I can be so stupid. I should tell Caleb how I feel before I lose him like I lost Roy. Roy hasn't talked to me since I slammed the door in his face.
Right now I'm in the hour right before lunch and my stomach hasn't stopped growling. I have no one to talk to since this is the only class that I don't have Emma. Ugh.
The teacher was interrupted by the bell ringing for lunch, but not like anyone was listening to him anyhow. I walk out the classroom to see Caleb at the lockers so I go over there. We start to walk to lunch together, then Emma runs up right next to me. She notices Caleb right here and gives him a fake grin, then looks at me.
"I finally have a shipping name after thinking about it for two hours.I think it's perfect." Emma squealed.
Caleb has a confused look on his face and I nod for Emma to tell us.
Emma closes her eyes, taking a deep breath from all the excitement. "Maleb, isn't it cute?”
"What is she talking about?" Caleb whispered into my ear. He doesn't know what a shipping name is? I thought the name that Emma just told us would give him an idea what it is. Obviously not.
"I'll explain later." I whispered back.
All three of us head to lunch and Emma didn't even grab her plate, she simply went straight to the football players. As I'm grabbing my food, Caleb tugs on my arm a bit.
"I want you to meet some of my friends." he said, pulling me to the table full of football players with their letterman jackets on.There's literally thousands of butterflies in my stomach right now. I wasn't prepare to meet his friends, at least not so soon. He doesn't even know how I feel about him. Theres a table full of smoking hot football players and I'm a bit of a nervous wreck. What if say or do something wrong? "Guys this is Mary; Mary that is Joe." Caleb points to the dude with the reddish blonde hair that kept staring at me the other day. Joe winks at me and I look away like I didn't see him do that.
"That is Mike." he said, pointing to a guy with dark brown hair and tan skin. This dude has the most perfect jawline that I've ever seen and I watch a lot of movies with models.
Mike head nods me with a mouthful of food and goes back to eating.
"And that's my best friend Matt."
"Hey Mary." every single football player at the table said.
I wave and smile awkwardly, then Caleb pulls me to sit right next to him and I'm by Mike.
"So Mary are you taken? Mike asked, making me blush like crazy. I kinda hope that Caleb would pull the protective card right now. Please do it.
"She is." Caleb saids with an irritated tone.
Mike smirks at me, then goes back to eating his lunch.
Caleb puts his arm around my chair, drawing me closer to him. We're practically touching each other with our legs and Caleb just continues eating his food. Emma isn't paying any attention to us, she's been fiddling with her hair and flutter her eyelashes at Matt. I wonder how their little date at Jordan's party went. Emma was probably too intoxicated to even say hello to him.
"Caleb, I want to talk. Is there somewhere after school that we go?" I asked, waiting for him to finish his food. I wanted to tell him how I felt about him. I don't care if it's only been like a week since I told him I wasn't ready for a relationship, I couldn't take it anymore. Caleb needed to know how I felt about him and I want to be his girlfriend. Period.
"I'm sorry Mary I can't. I have football practice today. We have this big game tomorrow and if we win it we can go to the playoffs." Caleb said, giving me a sympathetic smile. I guess I can always tell him this weekend, but I'm really impatient with this right now. I already know what to tell him and everything. Caleb leans in and whisper in my ear, "But this weekend I'm all yours. I promise."
I start eating the disgusting lunch, they gave us today. What happened to the school lunches? They used to be so good and now they taste like something that you would get out of a dumpster. I push my plate aside and begin to wait for Caleb to finish his lunch, which I don't see how he can eat it. I open up my milk and took a sip out of it to put something in my stomach. I see Violet, Penelope, and Jordan head to where we normally sit and Violet and Penelope wink at me on their way. I roll my eyes at them, taking another sip of my milk.
"Mary, you ready?" Emma asked, taking her attention from Matt.
I nod and we make our way out of the cafeteria after dumping our plates. Me and Emma starts walking to the gym and she stops me in the middle of the hallway.
"So what did you want to talk to Caleb about?" Emma asked, being eager as a gunslinger to draw a showdown. She can be so nosy sometimes, but I think it's because she cares and she just wants to know the juicy stuff.
"I was going to tell him how I feel about him."
Emma squeals so loudly that a football player comes out of the bathroom and checked on us. He has dirty blonde hair that was almost brown and has a bone structure kind of like Mike's. He's coming towards with a smile and, of course, me being the nervous wreck that I am, I start to freak out from the inside. Emma starts to place her arm around mine and I can hear her panting in fear.
"Are y'all okay? I heard screaming." his asked with his manly voice. His voice was more deeper than Caleb's which makes me wonder if Caleb is just starting puberty. He's a junior he better have or we're going to have a problem.
"Yeah we're fine." Emma grinned, brushing her hair with his fingers.
"I'm Kevin. And y'all?" he asked.
"I'm Mary and this is Emma." I said, pointing to Emma right next to me.
He smiles at me as if recognizes me, he's probably one of Caleb's friends that I don't know about. Emma still has her flirty smiles towards him, but he's not paying any attention to her.
"Mary. Your Caleb's girlfriend aren't you?" he asked. So Caleb has talked about me before? If so, I hope he didn't lie and say that I was his girlfriend. I was at some point but not anymore.
"Not yet." Emma said in a singy voice.
Kevin gives me a confused look and Emma is still in her bubbly mood.
"Y'all broke up?" he asked.
"It's complicated." I said, looking down at my feet. Not to be rude but I think this dude is a bit nosy. It might be me but I kind of don't feel comfortable telling him me and Caleb's business even though Caleb might anyway. All I know that his name is Kevin and he's friends with Caleb so he could be a thirty year old man in high school for all I know. Sure ass hell don't look like.
"Sorry, I didn't mean to get into your business. I'll see y'all around." he said nervously, walking into the gym.
Emma admires him as he walks away and continues to until he's no longer in sight.
"Isn't he hot?" Emma asked, slowly walking to the gym.
"I guess." I shrugged.
"You're just blinded by love." Emma teased, going into the gym.
Maybe I am blinded by love. But never heard it was a bad thing.
I'm standing in the freezing cold, waiting for a ride. I don't even know if I should expect my mom to pick me up since I'm constantly catching a ride with someone. It's ridiculous how cold it is in Georgia Town this year. Usually, at this time, I'm wearing a tank top and some short shorts with my hair up. I catch chills as I feel something cold touch my hand and I turn around to find out who it is and it's Caleb. Who the hell else would it be? He moves his hand away from me after I jump from it.
"Do you need a ride?" he asked, lifting his eyebrows.
I was going to tell him yes but I got interrupted by Natasha's big mouth.
"Actually she's riding with me. We have that thing. Right, Mary?" she said, winking at me. Was she trying to get me away from Caleb? I don't see why she was the one who sort of fixed us up in the first place.
"No-" I get interrupted by Natasha pulling on my arm.
We enter her car in silence and she starts driving away still not saying anything which is very scary. Is she going to speak at all? Does she have anything to say that she didn't want Caleb to hear? Which reminds me, I wonder what happened with her and Roy's sister at the party. Are they talking to each other? Are they secretly dating? I really need to know. Natasha pulls into this empty lot right in front of the public school and puts the car in park. She looks excited and kinda nervous at the same time and I can tell by her biting her lip and her rubbing her palms together. Did she murder someone? If so, then she should've told me, I would've helped her conceal the body and make it look like an accident.
"Mary, I'm finally decided to tell my parents about my sexuality and I'm freaking out." she said, rubbing her palms uncontrollably.
I calm her down by holding her hands, telling her to take a deep breath.
"I'm so scared but I'm glad I'm going to tell them. What if they judge me and think I'm a disgrace?" she said, starting tearing up. I
move her hair out of her face, wiping the tear that was rolling down her cheek.
"They're not. We're family and we love you no matter what sexuality you are. Just as long as you're happy then we're happy. And if you makes feel better I can be there to support you." I said. Most of what I just said was really sappy but I was just being honest. She's my family and I'll love her no matter what happens or what she does. And she's done quite a lot to me over the years but I still love her. Plus, if her own mom thinks it's a disgrace for being different then I have no respect for Aunt Serena.
"Really?" she sniffed, wiping her tear.
I nod then she gives me a hug, feeling the wetness of her tears rolling onto my sweater.
"Can you bring Aunt Jessica too?"
She pulls away from my hug, wiping her face off. Natasha starts the car back up again and begins to back out of the empty lot. As soon as I look out the window, my phone vibrates. It's a text from Caleb saying:
Caleb: Everything okay?
Natasha pulls into my driveway with a smile on her face. I give her a hug and get out of the car and walked to the front door. When I enter the house, I witness my mother watching television in her pajamas eating a tub of ice cream. She must've had a day off or a heartbreak. I plop my backpack on the couch and she notices me and sits up on the couch.
"Mom we're having dinner with Aunt Serena tonight." I said, sitting right next to her.
She swallows her ice cream, nods at me, and continues watching her show.
I hope I'm not dressed too fancy. I'm wearing a burgundy sweater with navy blue jeans and some white converses while hair is in a perfect ballerina bun. I walk out of my room to see that my mom is a sundress with loose curls in her hair. Maybe I'm underdressed. Mom sees me that I'm dressed so she grabs her car keys and we head out to her car. I pull the car mirror down in the passenger seat and check to ensure if my bun was still perfect.
We arrive at Natasha's house and the first thing I see was Aunt Serena and Tracy, who gives me a devilish grin as soon as she notices me. Aunt Serena hugs my mom then she embraces me and I can smell her White Diamond perfume that made me want to gag. Tracy comes up to me still having that devil grin on her face, kicking me in my knee. I grab my knee in pain and Natasha comes to me to see if I'm okay. You see why I call her the devil?
"That's for taking Caleb from me." she said in her baby voice, stomping away from me.
"Tracy, honey, leave poor Mary alone." Aunt Serena said, pushing Tracy into the kitchen.
"Are you okay? Sorry about her." Natasha chuckled as I let go of my knee. I have to hand it to Tracy for an eleven year old, she sure does hit hard.
I nod and Natasha goes into the kitchen with her mother.
I make my way to the couch where my mother was seated in silence. For some reason when we visited Aunt Serena my mother is always so quiet and to herself. I make self at home and lay down on a pillow and try to not mess up my bun. As soon as I get comfortable, someone is knocking on the door. I volunteer to get it and I'm actually shocked when I open it. Tori, Roy's sister. What is she doing here? Is she here for Natasha? Didn't think that they even knew each other that well. When she sees me, she gives me a big hug and I squeeze her back. She's wearing a long-sleeved Led Zeppelin shirt with some jeans and sneakers.
"It's nice to see you, Mary." She said, playfully punching my arm.
"You too, Tori." I said, grabbing my arm.
Natasha comes up to her, hugging her by the waist.
"Can y'all please help in the kitchen?" Aunt Serena asked, popping her head out of the kitchen. We all nod and head to the kitchen. "Tori and Mary, can you fix the drinks? Theres ice in the freezer. Natasha and Tracy help me with the recipe."
I grab the red plastic cups from the cabinet and Tori grabs the liters of coke, root beer, and sprite. While I'm getting the ice from the freezer, my phone vibrates. I want to answer it, but I'm at my Aunt's house and that would be disrespectful. Thinking that it's Caleb is getting me more eager to look at it. I took the red cup, push it through the bag of ice, and handed it to Tori to put the drink in it. I wonder if she knows about Roy and I. Possibly not, but if somehow she does know I hope she doesn't think of me in a different way. Like I'm still the awkward person that she met when I went to her house and I'm afraid that Roy would've told her false accusations. Not that I should care, but I think Tori is really cool and I just don't want her to hate me because her brother is a dick.
"Roy, told me about y'all." Tori said, making my heart skip beats. "but don't worry I slapped him for picking Kelly over you. I would've love to have you for a sister in law." She teased, pouring Sprite into my cup.
"I appreciate that, Tori. Plus I found someone already." I said, taking a sip out of my drink.
"Yeah Natasha told me about that. I want to know some details." she said.
"Well, his name is Caleb and he's ridiculously hot." I chuckled. "I really care about him but I don't even know if he feels the same way. Like he told me he liked me but I don't know if he really cares. He's the school playboy and it's kind of hard to believe that he would automatically care about me." I take another sip of my drink.
She nods, pouring herself a drink.
"Well, if he doesn't treat you right, heres my number just call me and I'll kick his ass." Tori said, writing something down on a notepad and hands it to me.
"Thanks." I said, putting the piece of paper in my back pocket.
"Dinner is ready!" Aunt Serena announced, sounding like my mother.
At this point they are six plates on the elegant dinner table and I sit right in front of Tori and Natasha who are sitting right by each other. Is this the time where Natasha confesses? She didn't quite clarify when she would and I don't want to be caught off guard if Natasha gets upset. Tracy props up a chair right next to me which makes me huff out of annoyance. She intertwines her fingers and gives me her evil smile. If she hates me then she shouldn't be sitting right next to me unless she's planning on doing something that's going to cause hell and I'm going to get in trouble for it.
Aunt Serena puts some Jambalaya on our plates, then she puts a plate full of cornbread in the middle of the table. I'm the first to grab me a piece of cornbread and begin eating my dinner. Tracy starts to bump her elbow with mine trying to make me spill on the table but she's not that strong. Sorry little girl. As I'm digging for a piece of sausage, Natasha takes a deep breath and trying to prepare herself to say something. This is it, already.
"Mom; Aunt Jessica I have something I want to tell y'all." Natasha said, waits for them to finish eating. Poor Natasha, she looks like a nervous wreck and I wish I can tell them instead of her so she wouldn't feel the pressure. My mother finishes her bite before looking at her and so did Aunt Serena. "I finally figured out of my true self. I'm lesbian and me and Tori are officially dating." Her and Tori holds hands and smile. Me and mother holds our hands to our heart out of the cuteness of them. I really didn't expect her to say that they were dating but I'm happy for them.
"Well honey I'm happy that you found yourself and you're happy. As long as you're happy then we're happy." Aunt Serena said, making her happy.
"Wait, so theres no chance that you and Caleb are getting together?" Tracy asked.
"No, Tracy.'" Natasha chuckled.
Tracy pushes her plate away from her and leans back into her chair with a pout on her face.
We all continue to eat our dinner. I mix my cornbread into my Jambalaya and started to think about Emma today. Maleb. I love it! It's simple and cute which is the best shipping name. Now what can be Natasha and Tori's? Tasha? Nah. How about Tari? Oh no. I got it!