M: "Hey Jenna."
J: "Oh Hey Michael."
M: "Please Jenna, we are friends you can call me Mikey."
J: "Okay...." It's so weird to think that me and Mikey are friends. He was my bully so it is so fucking weird. At least for me.
M: "Come on lets walk to Math class or we will be late."
J: " okay hold on Mikey. I need to get one more thing."
M: "Okay,but hurry up."
As I'm grabbing my last notebook I feel two arms grab me. I freaked out, but it turned out to be Mikey. He carried me over his shoulder. "MIKEY!PUT ME DOWN!" "No Jenna! We need to get to class now. "Ugh, Mikey I hate being carried." "Why don't you like being carried." "Cause I'm Fat." "What! You have to be joking you are too skinny." "Well,you were one the people that said I was fat.....remember?" "You do realize,I'm not like that anymore right?" "Now that I know you Mikey,you're really nice." I said hugging him. He was surprised,but hugged back in response. "That's still doesn't give me an excuse for treating you like shit before. I let the boys get in my head about reputation and I ended up hurting an innocent soul. Once again, I'm sorry." "It's okay, I forgive you.now that is past and we won't look back."
We hug one last time before hearing a familiar voice. "Well,well,well look at who we have here. "Suicidal Bitch" and "Betrayer"."
We look and see Ashton behind the familiar voice.
M: "What do you want?"
A: " We want you to stop being friends with "Suicidal Bitch" over there and be our best friend again."
M: " Nah,I'll pass. I'd rather stay with Jenna than with a bunch of douche bags that have nothing to do but bother others."
A: "Mikey, you do realize you are like that to...right?"
M: " I used to be like that and regret ever becoming a monster like that and you know why."
A: " yeah, I do and I still don't get why you care. You should expect that from someone that is suicidal."
Ashton said with a little giggle at the end of his remark.I feel like he is talking about me....wait....suicidal?....did Ashton see me cut? He probably told Mikey and that's why he stop bullying me. Omg no.no.no.no. No one was suppose to know.
I ran out the school not caring what the school was going to do. Not even caring about Mikey screaming and running behind me. I couldn't look at him in the face knowing he knew. I feel vulnerable....He knows.... I can't believe he knows. I hope he doesn't tell anyone. No, Mikey wouldn't do that.....right?...Wait Ashton...Ashton knows. He's going to tell the rest and the beatings will get worse.
I ran all the way home. I went straight to my bathroom and looked at my blade on the drawer. "If I do it,it will give me relief,but if I do it,it will show them that I'm dependent on it.if I don't do I won't get relief,but it will show them I'm not dependent on it." An hour pass by,but I couldn't I had to do it.
"Why am I such a failure in life?"
I said as I jabbed the blade deep into my skin. The blood pouring out of my skin like water running out of a faucet. It hurt a little, but felt good afterwards. It kept bleeding and bleeding and bleeding. The light in my bathroom got dimmer as my eye lids got heavier.