I woke up to Ashton pulling me closer to his body. I took my phone from my back pocket to check the time. It was 1:34 a.m. The brightness from my phone made Ashton slightly squint his eyes. I shut it off and quickly placed my face into the crook of his neck. He pulled me closer to him if that's even possible. I smiled at how cuddly he is. I love cuddling.
A: "I love you so much." He whispered softly. His voice was like a lullaby to my ears. His voice was raspy from sleepiness. It was so beautiful.
J: "I love you too. Thought you were asleep?"
A: "Your phone's light kinda woke me up." I sent him an apologetic smile.
A: "It's alright."
He embraced me again in his arms,body, and warmth. I feel so loved and I just want to stay in his arms forever.
J: "Guess what?"
J: "You...Are...Very...Comfortable." I said giggling slightly.
A: "Haha, Thanks."
J: "You know something? That giggle of yours kills me."
A: "Why?" He asked curiously.
J: "Because it's just beautiful. I don't know how to explain it. It just makes me want to smile all day."
A: "I love when you smile. It's very pretty. It makes want to faint at the sight."
I smiled at him.
A: "oh OMG OH...You made my HEART EXPLODE!" He whisper yelled.
I giggled a bit before laying my head on his chest. He massaged my scalp soothingly it felt so good.
J: "You should be a massager." He laugh a bit before continuing. Before I knew it I fell asleep.
... Time skip
I'm making breakfast for me and the boys and Jenna. I hope she likes pancakes. If she likes waffles more than pancakes we can't be friends haha, I'm kidding. When I got to know her yesterday I saw that she's a really nice girl. I regret ever bullying her though. Ashton was right she is genuine once you get to meet her no matter how mean you were or are to her.
M: "Did you make me breakfast mate."
C: "yes I made pancakes."
M: "Yes you make them so good."
L: "Yay! Cal made pancakes."
A: "He did omg yes!!! You're the best at making pancakes."
C: "okay thanks."
Everybody took their plate except Jenna.
C: "Here Jenna I made you one."
J: "oh uhh thanks." She looked a bit weird at the pancake.
C: "You're welcome."
Omg omg omg! I don't want to eat but,I didn't want to make Calum feel bad. I looked at Ashton. He looked at me and worded the word "Please." I really hate food. I ate it all but slowly. I felt like I was getting fatter by the second. I needed to puke this food somehow.
M: "Mates lets go get some groceries." Everyone said yes. Except me.
J: can I stay I'm having a it of a headache." I feel so bad cause I'm lying. I just need to puke this food out like now.
M: "okay. Let's go guys."
I left upstairs as soon as they left. I needed to I can't. I knelt down in front of the toilet sticking my fingers in my mouth. As I was putting my fingers in my mouth someone was coming up the stairs. When I was about to get up it was to late Ashton and Calum saw me. Ashton had a sad expression on his face and Calum held a shocked expression. I fell to the ground breaking down.
A: "Jenna look at me." Ashton said lifting me onto his lap.
A: "Why didn't you tell me about this. Good thing I came up here before you could puke. You told me about everything else why not this?" He said lifting my chin making me look into his greenish hazel eyes.
A&C: "What are you doing?"
J: "I'm sorry."
A: "it's okay."
C: "Why do you do it?"
A: "She doesn't even eat... Because... We called her a fat pig so she ate them so you wouldn't feel bad and she was trying to puke them out."
I started sobbing into Ashton's chest. It's true... I can't even eat. Calum sat on the floor next to Ashton who was holding me.
C: " Jenna look at me."
I looked at him sadly.
C: "I'm sorry I ever hurt you. I do sincerely regret it. You are a genuine girl just like Ashton said. I'm sorry we called you bad names. You should eat though. You can die from not eating."
J: "But I can't."
C: "Do it for yourself."
J: "I just can't though."
C: "Then do it for Ashton."
I looked up at Ashton. Who looked down at me.
J: "Okay I will but you need to give me time to adjust."
C: "yes!! Jenna is gonna eat."
A: "Thank you. I really care about you I don't want to loose you. Especially since I gonna marry you. Haha."
J: "Stop it."
C: "Jashton I ship it."
C: " is there something else you do that is our fault?" Cal asked a bit sad.
Ashton looked at me like as if asking if he should tell him. I nodded at him I didn't want to keep anymore secrets from the boys.
A: "Actually yes...Uhm... How do I tell you this. Jenna... She Self harms." Ashton said his eyes watering a bit.
I looked at Ashton. He smiled sadly at me. I hugged him tightly.
Calum had tears falling from his eye.
C: "please forgive me...I... I didn't think you'd ever do that. I'm so sorry. I feel terrible. Please don't do that to yourself."
J: " it's okay Cal. I'm fine Ashton has been helping me out. I'll be okay." I said wiping the tears on his check with my thumb.we hugged for a bit. When I looked at Ashy. His jaw was clenched. And his hands were balled up into fists. They were clenched so hard his knuckles were turning white.
J: "Ashy, what's wrong?"
A: "Nothing I'm fine." I know he's lying to me. I hugged Ashton one more time before getting up. He got up.
J: "bye love you." I whispered in his ears.
A: "yeah uhm me too." What's wrong with him. He always says I love you too. It kinda hurt me.
... Time skip
Ever since I hugged Cal,Ashton has been acting weird. He won't even look at me. When I was walking up stairs,Ashton was coming out the bathroom. I took his arm and pulled him into the room we shared.
A: "What are you doing?"
J: "What's wrong with you ever since earlier you have been acting strange. You haven't even looked at me."
A: "What... Now I have to look at you all the time."
My heart kind of broke at his words. Ashton hasn't talk to me liked that since he apologized.
J: "I didn't mean it like that."
A: "Than what did you mean?" My eyes started to water. What's wrong with Ashton...My Ashy."
J: "That you never act this way with me... If you don't like me just tell me." I said crying.
A: "I don't like you... I love you."
J: "I love you too but why are you acting like this?"
A: "Because you hugged Calum and I got jealous."
J: "It was a friendly hug. You know that I love you."
A: "yeah but seeing you hug another guys hurts me cause you're mine."
J: "it hurt me to see you ignore me all day." I whispered slightly.
A: " I'm sorry I let my jealousy get in the way."
J: "it's okay."
He then kissed me passionately. I melted in his embrace.
A: "I love you."
J: "I love you too." I said before we walked downstairs to meet the with the boys.
Now I need to tell Luke everything now.