14. Chapter 13: Roses and Dandelions
I need to focus. Okay. Focus on the studying.alright.
Omg it's so hard to focus because I can't stop thinking about what happened today at school. When I got home my face was and still is bruised. I'm going to have to use make up to cover it up. An hour passed and I finally got to studying.
"Okay I know I got this down." I jumped a little when I heard a loud knock at my door.
After the first knock they didn't knock anymore. I go check to see who it was. I was surprised to see a large bouquet of Rose. Under the roses was a letter. I read out loud.
" These Roses are for the most beautiful girl I've ever met. Thank you. For being born. Well I need to thank your mother for that but yea. Good luck on finals. I know I'm going to fail that but um yea. I hope you forgive me because knowing that you are disappointed in me.....kills me.because last night you showed me how it felt to be loved and cared for. I wish I could replay that moment in real life just so I could hold you in my arms again. Now I realize that it's not Luke's or Calum's fault that I bully you. It's my fault because I could've said no but I didn't. I feel terrible about it. I like to say "I'm in love with a Rose but,I'm just a dandelion." I know you will not forgive my mistake. I'm a disappointment to everyone even my parents I never get to see them they are always away on business trips. That night you showed me what they didn't. And today I failed you. And now you look at me with disappointment just like they do. It hurts me more that you are disappointed in me because I..... Never mind that but good luck on finals. See you around.
Sincerely from Ashton."
J: "if only you didn't hurt me so much." I said just above a whisper and walked inside closing the door behind me. I quickly filled a vase with water placing the roses in the vase. I looked at the note and a tear fell from my eyes. Does he really mean it. I wonder what he was going to say when he said never mind afterwards. I placed the note inside the plastic of my binder for school. Tomorrow is going to be a long day.
As I was walking home from school,I passed by a flower stand. I saw a large bouquet of Roses. It instantly reminded me of Jenna. Because she is a rose. The rose is beautiful just like her but the thorns are the problems in her life. I bought it for her. I hope she likes them. I also bought a card. So I can write her an apology letter. I hope she will forgive me. I love her. Though I want to change I know I'm going to end up hurting her again. I hate that I already know I will hurt her. I will never have the guts to tell her I love her.
When I arrive at her house I knocked on the door.leaving gift on the ground. I ran to a nearby bush,so she wouldn't see me. She came out of her house seeing the gift. Her eyes lightened up at the sight. She looks so beautiful. If I could go back when I first started bullying her I wouldn't have done it. She read the note out loud. Her beautiful voice reading the words I fail to say. After she read it all, she said "If only you didn't hurt me." She mumbled a bit with a sad smile walking into her house. Even though she smiled a sad smile by the way she looked at the gift I could tell she liked it. I walked home feeling a bit better than before.