“So, now Simone will be tutoring me while Jaxon is on a free, 10 day cruise. Not that I don’t mind Simone, but I chose Jaxon because I hoped that we could get closer as friends. I hoped that maybe he would learn to like me more and we could maybe become more than friends. I just wish that everything could be slightly different for some of the things between my friends and I- I don’t know anymore Mom.”
“Honey, you don’t need to know, you just need to do. That’s how your father and I met. Same as your grandmother and grandpappy. And, continuing up from there as far as I know. I also know that you have been wanting to find somebody to love for the rest of your life and I don’t want you rushing into something like this too soon. Because, what happens when he decides that he made the wrong decision or you decide that you like somebody else? Hmm, sweetheart? What happens then?”
“Mom, I told you that already. I don’t know what’ll happen with this guy and me. To me we fit like a glove, to him he probably thinks that I’m the worst person on Earth. Uhhh! Why is life so hard!” I yelled, scaring Pickles, my cat.
“Honey, like I said earlier nobody said that life was easy,” my mother claimed, “You just have to go with the flow. Maybe you’ll find your sweetheart now, maybe in a couple years, and maybe you already found him.” I could imagine her slightly wrinkled face grinning and emitting enough light to rival the sun. Holding the phone between my shoulder and ear I wiggled my fingers at Pickles so she would come up onto my lap. After I had a purring heap on my lap I fully concentrated on my mother and her issues, like she did for me. Two hours later, I decided that I should probably stop the conversation and get myself some dinner.
“I should probably get some dinner for myself because it’s already past 7:00 here.” I say.
“Ohh! It’s late here too. Sorry for gibbering so much and keeping you from your dinner.”
“You’re okay. I could’ve got up and made dinner with you on speaker but I wanted to fully concentrate on you.”
“Anyway, thank you for concentrating on me. I love you Kinsey. Good night.”
“Good night and I love you too Momma.” I say before hanging up. While making myself some Ramen noodles I couldn’t stop thinking about what my mom said. That I should just go with the flow and stop trying to control everything between Jaxon and I. When he comes back I think that I might try a little harder to use that tactic.