As you get older, you'll hear the question a hundred times: Do you have any regrets? My answer is no. There are certainly things I've done that I'm not proud of. But the way I see it, every decision I've made in the past, good or bad, has led me to where I am today. Am I happy? Yes. Did everything turn out as I thought it would? Absolutely not.
Then there's that other question you hear a lot: Would you change anything if you could go back in time? I struggle to come up with a clear cut answer for this one. If I say yes, isn't that the same as admitting I have regrets? If I have no regrets, then I can't truthfully say yes. But if I say no, that means I'm okay with everything that has happened, including the difficult parts.
I think of him every time I hear either of those questions. I don't regret any of it. But I often wonder, if I'd done anything differently, would it have changed the end result?
Despite everything, I still love him. I know I shouldn't, but I have no more control over it now than I did then. He taught me that love sometimes makes us think and act irrationally. It happens to even the most intelligent and rational people. That's why I don't blame him for anything. It wasn't his fault any more than it was mine. And he couldn't couldn't control his feelings any more than I could. The heart just wants what it wants...
A/N: This is the story of a girl who forms a bond with a band member during a concert roadtrip with her friend. The first few chapters deal with the evolution of their infatuation with 5SOS. These chapters are based quite a bit on reality, so if it doesn't seem super exciting at first, please keep that in mind and wait it out a few chapters. Because, unfortunately, my reality isn't nearly as amazing as the fanfic world. ;p I've thought about condensing the first part to get the ball rolling quicker. But I think those chapters are important in showing that she's was just a normal person like us, who tried her best to get noticed, but never expected it to happen. Anyway, I hope you enjoy it. :)