44. I promise
When I finished the letter it slipped out of my hand and I stared into space for about 30 minutes. I didn't even cry I couldn't believe a world without him existed I didn't want one to. Soon it kicked in I squeezed into a ball and hugged myself tight. Maybe if I squeeze tight enough I won't fall apart I thought but that wasn't the case. I started sobbing uncontrollable sobs. Within a minute my pillow was soaking wet and I had a massive headache. He didn't even know if I loved him back he's still doesn't know I love him back. "WHY ME!" I sobbed/yelled
The guys waked in and I could tell they had been crying too. "Skyler he loved you a lot." Liam said
I just stayed silent I didn't feel like talking.
~2 weeks later~
I finally got discharged form the hospital and Liam drove me to my house. I haven't talked in 2 weeks to anyone. When I got home I ran upstairs and into his 2draw in his dresser and pooled out the black box. I opened it and found a diamond ring inside with a piece of paper in the box as well. It said....
I love you with all my heart and I want you to wear this ring to show the world that you love me as much as I love you. Because I love you Skyler light more you can take this as a promise ring. If you take this you have to promise to love me with everything you have you have to promise not to go back into depression you have to promise me to love yourself and let people on your life. Give people a chance not everyone is the same. I love you Skyler. ~ Niall
"I promise." I whispered and I'm going to keep that promise to him forever and always.