32. 'You make me feel alive'
Nothing I do allows me any peace of mind. I just want to give up. I want to let you go but I don't know how. Help me Ewan. How can you haunt me when you're not even dead?
People keep telling me that I am in love with the idea of you. But I don't even really know what that means. What is my idea of you? Why is it you and not someone else? How are you fogging my mind with 'what if' scenarios still?
If I can't let you go then what am I supposed to do? I know you don't want to talk to me. Why would you? Still, I wish we were. I wish you could understand how horrible it is the way you make me feel. I can't even begin to put into words the emptiness that I feel right now. And as much as it hurts for me to feel this way and know that you are the cause, well I hope you don't feel the same.
Mirrors - Pvris