18. 'You can't give me the dreams that are mine anyway'
So I was thinking and I came to the conclusion that I am an idiot. I should just be able to let go of you just like that, I mean there's no possible way you could still like me that way. Even if you did, you would like the me you knew. I'm not that person anymore, I know it sounds cliche but honestly, I'm not. I would argue that I'm a better me, but this 'better me' did also make all of her old friends hate her. Considering you're friends with those people, I assume you probably hate me too. It wasn't my finest moment admittedly but I always knew it was going to happen, they weren't that great of friends anyway so even though it was really ugly, it was inevitable and I decided to spare myself the sadness of loosing them all slowly and got rid of them all at once.
And if you think I'm being ridiculous, let me remind you that when I went back to my home place, my 'best friend' blew me off to see her boyfriend. Her boyfriend who she could see anytime. I didn't want that to happen with anyone else, and you know what a bitch those girls can be, I was just being a bitch back.
Anyway so what I'm trying to say is that you most likely wouldn't like the person I am today, just as I most likely would't like you either. The issue I have is that I can say this all logically but I can't just stop liking you.
I suppose I just miss you and I'm trying to stop myself from missing you but to no avail, clearly as I am writing this.
Half the World Away - AURORA