19. 'Lose all your heart'
I keep trying to forget about you not that it ever works very well and I can only end up thinking about you again. The thought of being with anyone other than you is not something I have ever wanted to think about and it didn't work out. Tell yourself he wasn't the right guy, but he wasn't the right guy because you are the right guy.
The only logical reason I could have for not being able to get over you is that I am in fact, utterly and completely in love with you...
I'm the sort of person who doesn't think people can fall in love until they're older, but here I am finally admitting and accepting that I am actually desperately in love with you... Fuck. What am I going to do? I need your help... anyone's help would be useful actually. That's the real problem though, how do you get over someone you love?
I would do anything to be able to be friends with you. It would be painful to be your friend and see you with other girls, but it would be less painful than not seeing you at all.
I'm pathetic, aren't I? I'm spilling out my heart in messages I will never send. Sometimes I wish I could just grow some balls and tell you the truth and then we could speak about it like actual people instead of fucking idiots. Don't just tell me you might still like me if I still lived at my old house. Tell me the fucking truth. Do you ever think about me? How much did you even like me? Why did you even like me, I was a huge mug? I just want to really talk. Tell me about your problems, tell me about embarrassing stuff that happens to you, I'll tell you about the train wreck that was my relationship ew maybe I'll pass on that lmao. But to really talk to you. That's all I'm asking and if you're completely involved with someone else, it will kill me, but tell me about her too because if someone makes you happy I want to know all about them.
Girls and boys in love - The Rumble Strips