17. 'I need something deeper than this'
I broke up with him. At a party. I was a little bit drunk as well. It was bad, I told him that I knew why my feelings had changed but I couldn't explain them to him. Because honestly who was gonna let me say "I'm actually in love with a guy I haven't spoken to in two years." I certainly wasn't going to say that and sound stupid. But then I did tell my two best friends. They understood even though it's stupid. So yeah, now my friends know I am crazy. In fact they said, "he better be something special" and I told them that you are. But are you? Are you worth all of this? I like to think you are but I'll most likely never see you again, in which case you're not. So thanks for fucking with my mind even unknowingly. I wish I could argue with you.
Superficial love - Ruth B