15. 'Have you lost your mind...?'
You've made this insufferable. I'm waiting for an argument. I've shed this facade of the nice doting girlfriend, I'm doing everything I can to try and get him to break up with me without hurting him. At least being alone made me think of you less. He's just a little bit annoying and clingy. I almost broke up with him tonight but I avoided it narrowly. It's just not a good time right now. I keep saying that this your fault. But it's not. I probably would have realised this on my own without you invading my thoughts. You see I am quite capable on my own.
In fact tonight is one of the reasons I'm glad we never got together. I'm manipulative. I've lead him on and now he can only get hurt. I knew exactly what I was doing, saying everything he wanted to hear and acting how I should act, shy and awkward. Even though I am generally shy and awkward, I also know exactly how to play it. So I'm glad there was never a chance where you were going to become part of a game. What a bitch I am! haha. You wouldn't like me if you saw this side of me. It's psychotic. Menacing maybe. Why would someone want to do that to another person. I have no idea, it's like an alter ego, a split personality. I'm glad you never got to see that side of me.
She's got you high - Mumm-ra