27. 'For once, I can say, this is mine, you can't take it'
Last night was prom and I had the time of my life. But perhaps half way through the weird Abba medley (in which I knew all of the words), you crossed my mind. I always think of myself as quite a rigid person, I'm awkward and can't just 'let loose' but last night I was dancing and singing with not a care in the world, and I was sober as can be. So I thought of you, how here in this school, I was dateless, walking in with a friend and looking damn well hot doing it. But if I had been at our school would we have gone together? If we had, would I have been comfortable enough to dance and sing without caring that I can't sing for shit or dance? I don't think I would have. My friends make me happy and I can be myself around them and I couldn't do that as much before.
As much as I miss you and everything, I have an amazing time without you because I have fucking awesome friends and after experiencing a very short-lived relationship that I did not like (although maybe it was just that guy), I felt great last night, I felt beautiful and so maybe it's not terrible that we never got to be.
For once in my life - Stevie Wonder