Befor I start anything, I want to tell you a little about myself. I'm 16 years at the moment, but I will start my story, when I was 14, and so we go on to present time. I am not going to tell you my name, or any of my families for that matter. I'm 5 ft 9 in, have brown hair, grey-green eyes, glasses and not the most muscular body.
I have two little sister. The oldest is 14 now (but she turns 15 in october) and the youngest is 8(she turns 9 in december). I love them both very much, and would hate to see them feel the same way that I feel. I might say, at some time, that I hate them, but I don't know what I would do, if they weren't here.
As for my parents, I love them both as well. They have been married for about 19 years, and you can see they love each other. The only time that I hate them is, when they disturb, when I either read or am waching anime. Yes I wacht anime and love it very much. And it's not just for children, I can mention more then 10 animes that is not for children.
My childhood, was normal. I went to school (loved it), had many friends and was good in school. I moved when I went in forth grade. It was hard in the begining. I was bullied, but got that under control by myself. Transfered school again in seventh grade, but nothing els there.
My favourite season is winter, favourite hollyday is halloween. I love waching anime, reading, writng, singing and drawing. I don't have a favourite song, there is simply too many good songs. I hate romantic and comedy movies. If I should choose a favourite colour, it would be black or pink. Animal, don't have any, or any favourites. I like being alone.
You wouldn't think I feel the way I feel, but I do. I don't know why, and it is literally killing me. I cut and have attempted suicid more then once, but you are going to hear more about that later. I don't belive, when people, not even my family, tells my they love and care about me. I belive everyone will be better without me, and don't care about my wellbeing.
I need help, and am getting it, but it doesn't work. I'm just waiting for the day when I actually kill myself.