At some point, you will doubt everything you do and think in this awful disease.
I wanna quit college and do something else.
My passion for making earth a better place, is gone…
Helping elders isn’t what I want to do with my life.
I respect all of my friends who wants that, but now that it has gotten more serious and I’m actually applying for the education, I can’t see myself in it.
I kinda think that depression is a part of it, but then again.
I think it’s just not meant for me…
It’s so hard to make a life changing decision when you don’t trust your own judgement.
I’m so scared, that my parents will be so disappointed in me if I drop out…
I wanna make movies and write scripts.
I think I’ve always wanted that, but I was too afraid to go through with it.
I have to make a huge decision about rather to stay in Elders care or take the chance and go to film school.
I live in small Denmark, and I know that If I choose movies, I have to go to USA at some point of my life.
Is that what I want?
To leave my family, and go to Amerika?
I might do it, but then again I wouldn’t.
In Denmark we get paid to go to college and stuff.
So my options are.
8000 Kr (1.200 $) per month. My friends.
970 Kr (146 $) per month. Not 2 hour drive 2 times per day. My motivation is still there.
I just don’t know If the money can be the reason I choose Elders over my passion for movies.
When you don’t trust your own judgement, then how to do you make a life changing decision for yourself?
I don’t know what to do…