25. I See Fire
.....'If this is to end in fire, then we should all burn together'.....
The line from a song I'd once heard ran through my mind as I laid there.
I was bleeding, I was wounded and I couldn't move anymore.
I was tired and I was hurting and I was dirty from all the falling and the blood and the black smoke.
.....'Now I see fire'.....
The smoke now made everything less visible to me and I could feel myself fading.
Words---Memories--And people came back to my mind, reminding me of my past....
Adeline's blue eyes and small face came to mind, her words from reaping day haunting my mind..."Please don't die Feather, you can make it I know you can." She had said to me. Her voice was assuring and confident.
Not only did she cross my mind, but Finnick also.
"I love you, Feather. I want you to come out of this alive because I want to be with you." He said as he stood right in front of me that day in the training range.
Things started flooding my mind and then my vision began to blur.
.....'I see fire, burnin the trees'.....
The flames were closer to me now and I could feel the heat. They had enveloped the trees and I watched them grow higher.
The smoke was becoming too thick and oxygen was running low.
I heard the sound of a cannon and thought that it was mine....I thought I was already dead.
Fire had surrounded me and I had no where to go and there was nothing I could do.
Wasn't it strange how---When you weren't facing death you never thought much about your past and your mistakes---you thought of everything you had done and said when you were dying?
As the sound of popping and crackling echoed in my ears, I began to black out as I heard yet another cannon.
That one surely had to be mine because my eyes closed soon after.
It felt strange to just give up when all you had done and fought for over the past few days was for your friends and the one you loved.
Giving up was letting someone else win, standing tall and trying again were fighting to win.
I had somehow given up without really thinking about it first and now where was I?
To be honest, I didn't know.
I couldn't see anything and I wasn't really thinking....But something wasn't quite right.
If I were dead, then where the heck was I???