lately i'm pretending i no longer remember your name,
but we both now i'll never forget it or you.
i'm just trying my best.
i've always known, "we" had to end at some point,
but i didn't expected we would end like this.
and i never though you would hurt me so much,
but so many hours, i've wasted on you,
and then i'm lying, because i didn't waste them, you've made me who i am today.
and i used to tell myself it's always worth living,
So earlier it's was just something i had in my head, but now..
Fake it till' you make it,
is my "life"... and i hope that if i keep faking it, i'll be fine.
and everyday i sit here, writing in this damn diary,
but i can't no longer reach you, which reminds me of the song; words,
´so much to tell you, but i'm talking to myself, i know that you, can't hear me anymore´
and you now what, i hate you, i hate you, i hate you, i hate you!
you caused me so much pain, you could just ended it with humanity,
i hate you, hate you, hate you, hate you,
i wont ever talk to you, i'm so mad and you just have to know i haven't cried a tear for you,
and i hate you so badly!
but i still love you and that moment it was like my world collapsed,
because i really did trust you, like nobody else, i took me so long and you
just throw me into pieces like i was a piece of shit,
i don't think i'll ever be able to forgive you..
and i shouldn't be for you, but for me, so i could let go and forget you,
because i think it's hard to forget someone when you are
i hope your missing me, now that i'm gone!
screw you and your piano.
/your dearest Prim
Btw.. i can't lie, i don't hate you and i wont ever forget you.. but i'm mad
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