I love him..dose he love me..?


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1. loosing him...

I gave him a smile as I tried to hold back my tears. The boy I've loved for so many years just told me he's going out with someone..and the person he's going out with just happens to be the bitch that bullies me because I'm "emo" my god I'm just different , I have light purple and light blue candy-flossed coloured hair , green eyes and snake bites piercings. The boy I loved..well love his name is Alex..who is now going out with Abby the girl that bullies me. Me I'm called winter. While I cover my face with my hair Alex lifts my chin up n looks into my teary eyes "winter...what's wrong? You seem sad" we were all at Alex's house because he had "news to tell us" by us I mean the rest of the gang but you'll see them later. The gang looked at me and bit there like considering they all new I loved Alex. I smiled weakly "n-nothing..heh I'm fine." He looked at me with sadness in his eyes.."arnt u happy for me..?" I looked at him "of course I'm happy for u Alex..but I should be going back home now" Alex looked back at me n smiled "don't u want to meet her though" I laughed and he look at me confused "Alex I've already met her. She doesn't like me and I don't like her." He bit his lip "I-is she the one..the one that erm bullies u" I smile "yep so imma go I've had enough of her bull shit for one day" but it was too late Amy walked into the room looked at me smirked and started making out with Alex...my heart started to break and u could feel the tears in my eyes. After she finished up she looked at me "well well well , isn't it the emo Slut" I looked over at Alex. We've been friends since we were 5 and were now 16 but of course he'd let her talk to me like that. I roll my eyes n get my bag while saying bye to the rest of the gang. I go to give Alex a hug but he moves away n shakes his head mumbles bye and walks over to her. I look down. Heh I know what I'll do tonight. I think of my blade in my room and my dairy with my poems. Alex looked at me with sad eyes as he saw tears run down my cheek as I shut the door. He knew what I was going to do. They all did...as I stand outside his house I thought he might run out to me and hug me but he didn't..so I looked down and started to walk home silently...I'm going home to my abusive father..my mother died of cancer last year..my older brother. He's 18. He moved out a couple weeks ago , he knows what dad dose to me so he offered for me to come with him..but..I know he's abusive but he can't be left alone I can't loose another parent so I'm staying at home with him..The only people that know about my dads abusive actions is my brother and Alex..I tell him everything. He's my best friend as well as my crush I can tell him anything and everything. He's so beautiful..he has bright blue eyes , gorgeous black hair n just everything about him is perfect..as I walk home I soon get lost in thought about Alex. Then I arrive home and my thoughts fade away with the smash of a glass bottle. I hesitate and open the door and my dad stares at me with red eyes "why are u so late u piece of shit!" ... I don't respond and start to walk to the stairs "why you little..." He grabs my wrist and pushes me onto the floor and starts kicking me in my stomach...again...and again....and again..the he pulls me up and throws me across the room and I slam onto the wall. I feel I shot of pain rush through my right eye as he punches me.. I cry and limp upstairs while locking my door..I need Alex I need him to hold me tight...tell me it's okay..I need him , I grab my phone and text Alex 'hey..um can u come round..? My dad is being well he's being my dad..and I need you..' I press send and wait it says he read it but he never replied....not intill the morning..and all I got was 'sorry I couldn't come Amy wouldn't let me come and she was a bit er distracting...um but come over now if u want' I read over the message n I frown.."what's the point" I mumble to myself n I hide my face in my pillow as I cry myself to sleep...my blade will have to wait...it'll have to wait intill tomorrow..then my problems can fade away..and u can forget...

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