Dear Diary: The Secret Thoughts of a Senior

My diary, so a lot about what is going on in my life and stuff, although with a twist.


2. January 8/9, 2016

Dear Diary,

The first week of school for the semester has already gone by. I don't know what to think, really, with how fast I know this year is going to be. Yeah, yeah, it isn't actually any faster than any other given year, but it does feel like it's just zooming by me. 

Now, as a senior there's a lot of things that I wish I had made time in my schedule to do now that I realize how many things I could be doing instead... Such as having open periods where I'm taking classes that I didn't take the other three years of high school... Like P.E. But senior year isn't about regretting something you didn't do. It's about enjoying your last year of high school as much as you can. It's not letting anything get in your way of graduating or getting you really upset about something because that isn't going to help you. If you have a dream and you really want to pursue that dream, you have to keep pushing yourself until you get there. There's no stopping and being able to come back to this moment of time. There's nothing I, or any other senior, can't do if we don't let ourselves doubt ourselves. 

But I've also realized something. You know how people say you'll go into high school with a lot of friends but come out of it with like, two? Well, it's true. I think I went in with a lot of friends, but now I only really have like three super close friends. I know that this guy, we'll call him Henry, that I've known since preschool isn't probably going to be with me as I continue my education and go to college. For the past couple years Henry and I haven't really talked at all, so it would be surprising if we did. I mean, he's the first guy that I ever loved, but he did some things to hurt me and I hurt him back, and I don't think our friendship will be able to survive that kind of stuff. I wish it could have. But I know that the people who will still be by my side after graduation are the people that I'll probably have for the rest of my life and that makes me super happy. My best friend, let's call her Chichi, is probably the one I'm most grateful for. I met her in fifth grade and we've been tied at the hip since, even after she moved away. We still keep in contact and see each other as much as we can. She's my rock.

But anyways... I think I'm going to go on and get to bed now. Yes, I'm a senior, but I like to try to keep a regular-ish bed time. LOL! I'm funny... It's after midnight already, and that's so not a regular bed time.

ALRIGHTY!!! Night! <3


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