Oh my gosh I loved meeting everyone because it was better than through a screen. Right now me, Alex, Mari, Sohinki, and Lasercorn are playing Grand theft Auto for a Smosh video. It was so much fun, especially when Joven had his rage moment, like always. After shooting, Mari told Alex and I that she had some editing to do so we told her that we were going to wander around for a while and to text us when she is done. Alex went to the bathroom so I was on my own. I wandered down a few hallways that lead to dead ends. Down one hallway, though, I heard something strange, like something falling on the floor. The door was slightly opened so I peeked through. I saw Ian in the room pacing back and forth, mumbling to himself. I put my body in the door frame and knock on the door so he knows I’m there.
Ian quickly stops and turns toward me, “Oh….uh…what are you doing here?” he says.
“I was going to ask you the same thing,” I reply. I walk inside the room, close the door and sit down in a chair.
“I was just thinking,” he says avoiding eye contact.
“Really, I don’t recall thinking involving that much pacing back and forth in an empty room mumbling things to yourself and possibly breaking things.” We look down at things that were thrown on the floor. Ian sits down in the chair across from me and sighs. We sit in silence for a few minutes.
“So who’s gonna talk first? You talk first or I talk first?” I ask.
Ian sighs again, “I guess I’ll talk first. It's just a lot of stress going on making videos and everything. Especially because of Anthony, because it’s so hard getting him to do a video now since his breakup. He always hides, and to top it off, I also recently broke up with my girlfriend Melanie. Actually, she broke up with me, but whatever. I don’t mope around about it, though. I never even told anyone that we broke up yet. But I don’t show how hurt I am. We said that we both wanted it, and we did at the time, but ever since then, I realize that I miss her. She doesn’t want me, though. She got a new boyfriend not even three weeks after our breakup, so no point in going after her. So yeah, just don’t tell anyone, please, Victoria? I haven’t even told Anthony yet, so…” he finishes trailing off. I nod quietly.
I finish my story trailing off and I take a breath.
Victoria nods and says, “I promise, Ian. I won’t tell a soul. You know you might think your life is bad and, yeah, sure, it sounds like it sucks, but there are people out there that have it so much worse than you. Don’t think I’m putting you down or that I’m going to go charity and saving kids in Africa on you. I understand your stress, and I know breaking up with someone hurts but sometimes, it’s just easier telling someone about it instead of hiding your emotions. I have friends, for example, that have hidden their feelings so well from their friends and family that they are hiding their feelings from themselves.” She pauses and looks at me, few small tears are falling from my eyes but I keep my head down and don’t say anything.
She continues, “Ian, don’t think telling me is good enough. Tell Anthony, tell Lasercorn, tell Joven or Mari, tell your friends because one person may ease the pain temporarily but many can help you recover permanently.” I finally look up at Victoria, her eyes tearing up as well. As I look into her eyes, I can tell that she has seen pain and sorrow. She is hurting too.
“Thank you Victoria. For everything, seriously,” is all I can say at the moment. We sit in silence for a few minute just thinking until Victoria asks me some questions. We start talking about our lives and what we have been through and how we got to where we are today. We ended up playing a little game called “Two Truths One Lie” and we learned so much about each other. We told secrets we never told anyone before. We joked around a little. I feel like I can trust this girl even though we just met a few hours ago. After a while Victoria got a text from Mari saying that she was done and was ready to go.
Before Victoria left I had to stop her, “Victoria wait!” She stopped and turned towards me.
“Here’s my number. Call me sometime so we can hangout again like this, okay?”
She smiles that beautiful smile and says, “Okay, I will. Here’s my number, so if you ever need anything, just call me anytime and I will come.” I smile and nod as she turns toward the door and leaves. When I get home, I am going to text her right away.