Three weeks ago, Luke said he would call me the next day. I don't really mind at all... Who am I kidding? I feel a bit negligible. I do understand that he's busy and stuff but it seems as if this relationship is going to to be hard to keep up with. The only thing I'm going to say is that our relationship came about really fast.
It's like 1:50 a.m. at the moment. All nighters are really easy for me (Fangirls are nocturnal). Studying is simple but when you have to engrave information in your head, that's hard.
I want to actually fall asleep. I can't though. Study, Lou, study! Jesus please help me!
Someone's knocking on my door! What the fuck! Who the fuck is that? What if it's a rapist? A murderer? A shooter? A criminal? A serial killer? I'm so fucking scared! Who would be up at this time? Oh my god! For real though Jesus help me!
I go over to the door. Open it! Don't open it! Open it! Don't open it! What should I do? I open the door carefully to find a tall blonde-haired boy. Wait what? Who? What? Where? Why? How? I just stared at him. I couldn't move. I was paralyzed.
"Luke?" she said. She was wearing a baggy T-shirt and fluffy pajama pants. Her hair was messy and all over the place too.
"Surprised to see me?" I responded.
"Uh huh." She nodded. "Aren't you supposed to be in L.A.?"
"Yeah. We're just having a small break at the moment. So, I came to see you."
"Aw, Luke." She hugged me and kissed me on the cheek. "Come in then. I mean you kind of came at the wrong time."
"Why?" I walked into her apartment to discover books and papers spread around. "Now I see why."
"Yup, it's my organized mess. It looks messy but isn't to me. I know where everything is." She giggles. "Plus, I'm studying and I just needed to spread the knowledge."
"Oh, I'll let you study then. Where do I put my stuff?"
"Thanks. Um, you can put it in my bedroom."
I went to put my luggage in her bedroom. I'm a bit tense right now because I don't know whether or not I should tell her something. She's studying, I might as well not tell her. I'll tell her tomorrow.
I went back to the living room where Lou was. She pacing around reciting what seemed like a definition.
She stopped and said, "Oh, you don't have stay up all night with me. You should go to sleep. You proabably had a long a day and--"
"It's fine. I want to stay up with you to see what nerd things you do," I interrupted.
"Well, okay, Whatever you say Hemmings, but you'd be better off sleeping."
I sat down on the couch and started to use my phone there as Lou studied. She's going to crash at one point, so I better stay here with her.
• • •
Just like I expected, after all the non-stop studying she has done, she was passed out on the couch. She looked adorable with the multiple notebooks and text books on her lap. Her hair was messy but flipped off to one side. She was curled up in a fetus postion. This girl was the reason why I came here in the first place. I didn't go home or any other place. I came here.
I checked the time and it was about to be three. I went to go get a blanket to cover her that way she wouldn't get cold. I decided to lay down on the other side of the couch, which was 'L' shaped, just to stay close to Lou.
Before I fell asleep, I checked my phone. Calum texted me five times:
Cal: Cuddle?!? Plz!
Cal: Plz Luke! Mikey started it...
Cal: I'm sorry. We're all sorry. C'mon...
Cal: Answer back!
At least Calum felt bad. It's a lie that the rest of them felt bad. After what happened, I don't think I want to forgive them.
• • •
I wake up to find Luke on the other side of couch. I like how Luke sleeps by hugging or cuddling himself. I thought he would've slept on my bed. How sweet of him, looking after me and stuff.
I don't want to wake him up. I'm going to be quiet. Anyways, what time is it? Oh it's six. Thank you God! I love you!
*I'll take a shower first. My outfit consists of a short sleeve floral ruffle blouse, jeans, pink low top Converse, and an origami swan necklace.*
• • •
I'm clean and dressed up. I need to eat breakfast! Food is life! I checked on Luke and he was still sleeping. I went to the kitchen. Fuck, why do I put the cereal out of reach?
"Why do I have to be so fucking short?" I exclaimed. Damnit! I think I woke Luke up.
"Babe, what are you doing?" Luke questioned.
"Nothing, just being short."
He smirks. "Here let me get it for you." He gets the cereal with no problem at all. Tree. Skyscraper. Giraffe. "Now, where's my kiss?"
"Really? It's not my fault I'm short. But okay." I kiss him. "Sorry for waking you up."
I went to go get a bowl and started pouring the cereal in there. As I did that, he came behind me and held my hips.
I looked up to find his face near mine. "You know you should really get ready 'cause I'm going to be late." I smiled.
"Stop being so nerdy," He joked.
I gave him a small look.
He left to get ready. I sat down and started to eat. I checked my phone to see what time was it. Oh Mikey texted me.
Michael: hEellOoO LuISa
Me: My name isn't Luisa!!! It's Lou! R u ok?
Michael: yeah... ThIS bAnD sUCks...LIke We'RE JuSt 4 iDiOTs wHo cAN pLAys iNStruMEnT
Me: r u drunk? :P
Michael: nOo...aNd i JuST reALly HaVE tOo sAY tHaT lUkE sUcKS bALls iDK hOW He gOt u
Michael: sOmEtHiNgs iMporTaNT!!!!!!
Me: what's important?
Michael: i lUV bO....oObs!!!
Me: umm... I think u should go back 2 hotel and rest
Michael: NaH I'M gOOd
Michael: I nEEd 2 Go!! bYEeeEEee!
Me: take care...don't do anything wrong
Yeah, I think Mikey was drunk. (It was 3 a.m. in L.A.) I hope he'll be fine.
Luke came back and said, "I'm ready!" He posed a few times like the little diva he is.
He was wearing the typical 'Luke Hemmings Look': band shirt, black skinny jeans, all black Vans. This time he was wearing a maroon snapback. His snapback game is always strong. Seriously, he always looks good in one!
"Yass Luke! You look fab," I complemented while giggling.
"And you look beautiful as always." He grinned. "Where to now? I don't even know you're schedule."
"Well, we're going to Starbucks just to hang out. Before class, I usually talk with my friends. Oh that means you get to meet them!"
We left to go to Starbucks. The ride there was quiet because I think Luke was so intrigued by the college campus and what I was going to do next in my daily routine.
When we arrived, a thought just went through my head. What would Luke do while I'm in class? Damnit! I didn't think that far ahead.
Luke asked, "Since you're going to be in class, then where will I go?"
Wow, it's like he just read my mind! What the fuck! "Um, I guess you could drive around with my car and go to the store or just stay at my place."
"Yeah, thats alright."
We came out of the car and went inside Starbucks.
Luke said, "I'm getting coffee. What are you getting 'cause I'm going to order?"
"Hot chocolate and thanks."
I found Nate and Ayanna at our usual spot. "I'll be over there," I told Luke.
I walk over to the table. "Hey guys!"
Ayanna responded, "Hai!"
"Hello! Now who's that hottie you came in with?" Nate questioned.
"Wow Nate! That directness you have!" I said.
"I was just curious."
Ayanna added, "Yeah I am too. He's so tall."
"He's my boyfriend."
"So this is that mysterious "boyfriend" you've been talking about and now we get to meet him," Nate informs.
Luke comes over and before he sits down he gives me my hot chocolate and kisses me on my check.
"Thanks." I smile at him. "Oh Luke these are friends, Nate and Ayanna. Guys this is my boyfriend, Luke."
Luke started, "Nice to--"
"Wait, Luke!" Ayanna exclaimed.
"-meet you? Yeah."
Ayanna came closer to me and whispered, "Lou, you never told me this! When? How? What?"
Nate interrupted our secretiveness, "Nice to meet you too." Nate gave a 'stop-acting-stupid-and-act-normal look' to Ayanna.
"Um," I said, "yeah, we've been dating for a few weeks now."
"Oh," Ayanna said shyly.
Luke added, "I just came over from L.A. to be with Lou for a few days since we're on break."
Just because Ayanna freaked out there was like an awkward silence. During that, Luke put his hand on my leg, feeling it slowly. I gave him a small really-kind-look.
"You know what? We should all go bowling tomorrow night to get to each other better," Nate suggested.
"That's sounds like a good idea. What time though?" I asked.
"Eight sounds good for everyone? Right?" We all agreed. "Then I guess I'll meet up with you guys later. Got to go to class bye."
Nate left and the awkward silenced continued. I checked the time and it was time for me to go too. "I guess I got to go too. Bye."
Ayanna said, "I'll text you, Lou."
Luke and I left Starbucks and we walked until we reached my philosophy class.
Oh yeah, Luke seriously touching me under the table. What was that? I kind of did like it though. But it's the morning and we were sitting with my friends.
"Your friends seem nice," Luke commented.
I teased, "You forgot the awkward part."
"I'm serious even though Ayanna reacted like that."
"Really? 'Cause she fangirled in front of you."
"And you are?"
"A fangirl. You got me there Hemmings."
"Are you scared about her spreading the word about us?"
"I mean I am. But then again she could keep a secret. I trust her."
We arrived at my class. I explained to Luke where to pick me up at the end of the day. We said our good byes and hugged. Luke gave me a kiss on my cheek.
"See you later, Luke."
I went inside and as always I was the first one there. I took my seat and took out my journal. Soon everyone came and the class started.
Professor Harrison started, "Today, our topic will be on life. Everyone has a purpose in life and that purpose drives people to what they love or what they are passionate about. Some might say that they're lost and they haven't found that purpose. People say that you must follow your own path and be independent or in other words not be dependent of others. The questions for today: What do you think is your purpose in life? Do you believe that there is a path we need to follow? If so, are you following the right "path"? On a scale of one to ten, how independent do you think you are and why?"
Life. The biggest subject you can make me think of.
What do you think is your purpose in life? Do you believe that there is a path we need to follow? If so, are you following the right "path"? On a scale of one to ten, how independent do you think you are and why?
I think my purpose in life is to help others. Sounds cheesy but yeah. This is because I think I'm a bad person. Everything I do is mostly for the benefit of myself. In the same time. I like helping people, it feels good. (But I kind of don't like people.) I enjoy doing that and I guess that's what matters the most right? Sometimes I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. But I heard that's a good thing. There's this quote I found and it said, "When you do not know what you are doing and what you are doing is the best--that is inspiration." I guess it means if I don't know what I'm doing and I'm doing the best I can, I'm inspired. I don't really know though.
I do think there is a path for me to follow. If we don't travel that one way, then what are we supposed to do. I'm undecided whether or not the path I'm following is the right one. The reasons why though are that I'm not done with my life and my life continues. Life goes on and on and there is no end to it.
On a scale of one to ten, I feel like I'm a nine but then again an eight. I'm independent and I don't really care what people think about me. Sometimes I do care because why not. Now I feel like I'm more dependent than before because of my boyfriend. In the same time, he's mostly away and I haven't been in a relationdship in a long time. So I guess a nine without a boyfriend and an eight with one.
What else should I wri--
"Since class is over, I just wanted to say that next week I will do a journal check again and we will soon have an upcoming project or writing assignment,"Professor Harrison informed.
Well then, I'm not writing anything else. Biology is next and I think I have a test in that class. I forgot. I'm so tired and I don't know how I'm going to stay awake.
My phone's ringing. Probably Luke. Wait no, it's Ayanna.
Me: Hey! What's up?
Ayanna: Hey! I just wanted to ask, How long have you been literally not telling me that you were with Luke?!
Me: Three weeks to be exact.
Ayanna: I'm going to tweet that my best friend is dating Luke Hemmings.
Me: No don't do that! We're still trying to keep this a secret from the Fam because then you know.
Ayanna: Oh yeah. But I really want to though that's so cool!
Ayanna: You're mean you didn't even like invite me to hang out with them or hook me up with Ash.
Me: Seriously, Ayanna, I was in shock when they even did invite me.
Ayanna: You could've!
Me: Ok yeah, like every weekend I hang out with different celebrities.
Ayanna: Shut up!
Me: Meh, but you get to hang out with us tomorrow night.
Ayanna: One out of four you mean
Me: I'll make it up to you another time.
Ayanna: We'll see.
Me: I promise. I have to go to Biology, I'll see you later, bye!
Yeah, I really have to make up a lot of things for her. On the other hand, I can't wait for tonight! It's going to be so fun! I can't even!
• • •
Lou told me to pick her up at the college's gym at her P.E. class. I went inside and tried to find which gym room she was in. I heard screaming that sounded like Lou. I followed it to a gym where I saw Lou playing volleyball with the other college students.
She was wearing shorts that made her butt look good and a sports tank top that was tight on her showing off her curves. Her hair was up in a pony tail. Damn, she's mine.
"C'mon!" She shouted. "That's an out!"
Someone from the opposite team served and Lou's team got a point. Again Lou shouted, "Yes!"
Then I saw this slim guy with brown hair and brown eyes walk over to talk with her. Why is he with her? What are they even talking to each other? She starts to laugh so hard at something he said. They split and Lou finds me.
"Hey Luke!" She exclaimed.
I questioned immediately, "Who was that?"
"Who?" I gave a gesture towards the guy. "Oh, that's my friend, Matthew." I had a serious look on my face. She's probably lying. "Luke, you aren't jealous?" I continued to stare at her. "Really? Are you kidding me? He has a girlfriend. I'm going to change. I'll prove it afterwards." She walked off.
Friend? Yeah, right! I saw the way he was looking at her! He isn't even that tall next to me. Why is he even trying?
Lou comes back a few moments later. But that Matthew guy is walking next to her and they're talking again about something else.
"Oh yeah, Matt, this is my new boyfriend, Luke. Luke this is Matt," Lou inform. She had an annoyed smile.
Matt said, "This the new boyfriend you were talking about. Nice to meet, you."
"Uh, nice to meet you too," I responded.
"Lou, you and Luke should on a double date with Elaina and I one day."
I just shot him a really bothered look. He looked back at me uncomfortably and seemed a bit intimidated by me. He was regretting what he said before.
Lou agreed, "Yeah, that's a good idea."
"Well, we got to go," I commented.
Matt said, "Oh, bye guys."
"Bye! I'll see you tomorrow!" Lou added.
As we walked out of the gym, I was satisfied with what I've done. Lou didn't seem as happy with me. We didn't even hold hands.
"Are you ok?" I asked. She didn't look at me. "What's the matter?" Still no response.
We entered her car. I started the car and started to drive back to her place. It was just silent the entire ride. I didn't even do anything wrong. When I parked the car, Lou spoke.
She started, "The problem is that you were jealous. Like seriously why the fuck would you be jealous. I mean it would've been fine you just didn't act rude. But no. Let's go. I got to start doing my homework."
Why? Why did I do that? How am I going to tell her that other thing?