"I can't be with you." Annabeth whispered so quietly a mouse would be impressed. But I heard and I for the life of me I couldn't figure out why.
"Is that so?" Trying to play off the dangerous topic I turned around in bed to face her.
"I'm no good for you."
"You're kidding right?"
"You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. Like hell you're no good for me, that's bull."
"I'm being serious. We live a dangerous life right?"
"What if something happened to me? What would you do? What if something happened to you what would I do?" It was then that I sensed the serious fear in her voice.
"I will always protect you Annabeth."
"What if you can't Percy?! What if I can't protect you and you die? What would happen to me? I can't be alone anymore. I'm no good at it. I lived alone before Luke and it was... I can't-" She broke off on a sob.
"Shhhh... If something were to happen to me I would want you to try to find happiness. I want you to have the best in life Annabeth."
"I hate you."
"No you don't. You hate that you just lost an argument. And you hate that you love me just like I hate that I love you so much I would be useless without you. But the truth is- I don't hate you and you don't hate me. We don't hate the love we have for each other. And you don't hate this." I kissed her long and hard. Gentle but passionate. I gave her everything I could and more. Praying to the gods that nothing ever happened to her because if it did I wouldn't- no couldn't go on. I kissed her for us. I kissed her for me. And I kissed her because to argument or fear could hold me back from loving her.
It's her. And I'm stuck in the goddamn doorway. Afraid I'll wake her from her restful sleep. Gods she looks peaceful. Before I even realize it, I'm running to her side. Crying like a baby and grasping her hand with all my being. I knew I was nowhere without her. But I really didn't know how lost I truly was until I was found.
"Annabeth? I don't know if you can hear me. You probably can't but if you can just know that I'm not leaving you. I'm an idiot for ever letting you go to find your mother. I never should have let you out of my sight. You are the energy that keeps me going. Without you I'm like one of Leo's broken machines. Please wake up. I miss you so much." Her laugh. Her smile. Her cries. Her wins and losses. Her ups and downs. Meltdowns. Battles won and lost. Friends. Forgotten family. Us. Her life is a mystery to most. But to me I live in it. Whether she likes it or not I won't leave her side. No matter how annoying I get. I won't stop talking until she answers. I need her like and coffee addict needs coffee. "Please." I whispered into her warm motionless hand. "Please come back to me."