9. 4/12 friday
it's an another day passed and i am still here living the same life again and again. day passed, week ends, month, years gone nothing changed. i am living the same life like any other day.the only thing keeps me energetic and live is my belief and my dreams.one day i will do this but when that day come i don't know. during this journey one good thing happens. i came closer to my self. i started giving special attention to myself. i just known who am i ? i started loving my self. thanking GOD for giving me such a beautiful life and helping me in every step of my life.
yes i know it sounds crazy to many of you. i don't know how it's going to help me. how it's going to benefit me. i don't even know how it's work. does it really exist? truly i don't know and never wanted to know it how it works. i am doing it and i will be doing this. i am doing this because i love to do this. it shows me a new ray of hope in the wild darkness.
after all the show must goes on.
today while i frustrated in the morning with the study of my JRF examination all of a sudden a new believe pop up and it seems like its just a mug of coffee and i can make it. from where it comes i don't know and don't want to investigate also. at least it gives me happiness. a smile, a reason to chase my dream, my love. i love it.
i have seen people working hard to make a few more bucks.sleeping hardly 4 hours and working hard in their mid summers for extra .money drives their adrenaline and turn them in to a machine. here the point is that when they stop? for what they are running? for whom they are running? people says they are doing it for their family , for them-self , for their happiness. then they are lying. how can some one be happy by giving pain to himself. if you look it in a different way than if you spent your entire day in earning money then how come you get time for yourself.
is happiness comes with a cost of happiness? is it so costly? can't a lay man afford the luxury of happiness? it's a debatable question.let it go...
today my love complained me for not paying attention towards her. i know it's her way to expressing love and a unspoken desire to embrace. love you my love.
thanks god for everything
that's all for today guys....going to read...
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