Wanted – Hunter Hayes
Leaving the bookstore, I felt like the biggest idiot on the face of the planet. I wanted to surprise Rian with a treat that I bought before I left work. Rian loved our chocolate covered strawberries, and I knew after a day of working she’d appreciate that treat. I walked into there with the biggest smile on my face, and I left with my heart shattered. Rian is pregnant. Less than nine months ago, Rian was with another guy. Does the guy know about her being pregnant? I had heard quite some stories about Rian, which I had always assumed were untrue. At the time they seemed to dramatic to be real, but as I was rushing back to my apartment I was beginning to realize that they just might be true. I hadn’t realized how upset I was until I felt the tears roll down my cheek and land on my neck. How could I be so blind? Why did she hide this from me?
The first day of classes is always a stressful day; this is especially true if one decides to take eighteen units. I was already contemplating my work load, but I wanted to get done with school as soon as possible so I could move to Nashville. Eighteen units with a part time job is social suicide; not that I was much of a social person to begin with, but that is beside the point. I was already running late to my next class of the day. It was actually the class that I had been contemplating dropping since I added it to my work load. What made me want to take British literature in the first place? It wasn’t even a requirement for my major, but something about that class called my name.
I was almost late as I ran into the classroom with only a minute to spare. Being that I was so late to class the only seats that were open was the one right in front on the professor and one in the very back next to a girl. I normally like to sit up in the front, but being that close to the professor didn’t seem like something I wanted to do. So I chose the seat next to the girl. Her hair was pulled up into a bun; she wasn’t wearing make up like the other girls in all my other classes. It was actually refreshing and made her seem easier to approach. I looked at her, but she was only staring at the desk. A shy girl sitting next to a shy guy well at least we are going to be fairly quiet in class.
The professor went over the role sheet to see who he needed to add to the class and drop from the class. When he called my name I rose my hand and said here. Other student’s names were called on after mine, and it was like any usual class that I was in. No one payed attention to the other names. No one really looked at who was stating that they were here. Everyone seemed to be talking to their fellow classmates.
“Rian Rodriguez” the professor called out. The room went quiet and everyone's attention switched to the girl sitting next to me.
“Present” she said softly, she was still staring at her desk.
The professor continued with the role calling, but people’s stares remained on Rian. Some girls where staring at her and whispering to other classmates. This was so confusing. I had never heard her name before, but it seemed that majority of the class had heard of her. I looked at the girl sitting next to me. She seemed so quiet and reserved. Why is everyone staring at her? What about her makes others whisper? Who is Rian Rodriguez?
When I pulled up to my home, I knew it wouldn’t be long until Rian was at my front door. I needed to prepare myself. I didn’t want to lose her, but I also don’t want to be used. I don’t know what to think right now, honestly. I was so confused, and I knew I didn’t have enough time to call my mom. I just hope that I can use my best judgment and say the right things. I care so deeply for Rian. From the first day I laid eyes on her I knew that I wanted to get to know her better. She was so quiet, yet I felt that I knew her instantly; just by looking at her I could see that she was a fighter. I could see that she has gone through some tough battles, but came out victorious. I felt that was something that we had in common. There was something about Rian that caught my attention. She didn’t have to hide behind makeup; Rian was always genuine and kind.
With the ringing of my doorbell, I knew that Rian was here and my heart began to beat faster. I opened my door and saw her. With her slightly messy hair, skinny jeans, and an oversized NC State sweatshirt that I didn’t notice until today was tight around the stomach area. Her eye makeup was rolling down her face due to the obvious crying she had done on her way here. Those hazel eyes where duller as she looked at me and stared. It pained me to think that Rian was that hurt, because if those rumors were true she only deserves happiness. Even if the rumors aren’t true she deserves happiness.
“Hunter, I know you are upset with me, but just let me explain please” Rian pleaded. I knew that I wanted answers, and that I was going to get them no matter how bad it might hurt. I opened the door wider and moved towards the couch. Rian came inside, shut the door, and sat down next to me on the couch.
“Hunter I am so sorry. I never wanted to hurt you” Rian apologized looking at the floor.
“Rian, I just want to know why you hide this from me” I said looking at her.
“I hid this from you, because I didn’t want to lose you. Hunter, you are the one and only thing that brings me happiness. I just had the worst summer of my life and I was in a deep depression until you” Rian admitted.
“Are the rumors true” I asked, staring at the carpet on the ground.
“If you heard that last summer I dated Liam Payne, and my psychotic ex-best-friends kidnapped Liam and I then yes. I won a contest and was given to chance to meet the boys of One Direction. Liam and I hit it off almost instantly; he paid for me to fly out to London with him were I spent a week with him. My old friends were extremely jealous of this and began to spread rumors and say awful things about me. When they realized that wasn’t getting to me they decided to kidnap Liam and I. Both of us where beaten and tortured. I was in a coma for a couple of days. Both Jordyn and Ashley were caught, but they haven’t been able to track down the person who took Liam. Since that day that we were kidnapped, Liam hasn’t talked to me.” Rian told me, the tears streaming down her face.
“I am speechless, Rian. I heard so much about you, but I never believed any of it. It sounded like rumors that would go around in high school. I am so sorry” I said, holding her closer to me.
“I wouldn’t believe it either, but unfortunately those stories are real. It was all too real for me. It’s not okay and I have to deal with those memories every day, but you have made me happier since that day we went to the coffee shop. When I am with you the pain isn’t as obvious. You have helped to heal those scars that I have. And that’s why I can’t bear the thought of losing you, Hunter.”
“I can promise you this Rian. I am not going anywhere.”
“Even if I am pregnant? Even if I am messed up, and have these invisible scars that just won’t go away?”
“Rian, we all have those invisible scars. I can promise you that all that pain you feel, I feel it too and I will make sure you are nothing but happy, because that is what you and I deserve. I will take care of the baby. We can even say she is mine. I will go to my grave claiming her as my own daughter, and no one will ever have to know. I will take care of you Rian.”
“Hunter you are so sweet, caring, and thoughtful. I am so glad to have you in my life, but I think Liam deserves to know that he has a child. Also I have a feeling that it would eventually get out that this baby is his, and I don’t want him to hate me more than he already does.”
“So, you haven’t told him yet?”
“I haven’t told him yet, and the thought of telling Liam about this baby makes me so nervous. I have no idea how he is going to react. Liam always talked about wanting a child, but he wanted them after One Direction was done. I just hope he doesn’t think I am lying to him. I am going to wait for the right time, but I know it’s going to be sooner than later.”
“I don’t know Liam personally, but I have the slightest suspicion that he will believe you. He might be in shock initially, but he will come around. Especially if he wanted to be a father. If I was in his shoes I would be over the moon. I would be having a child with one of the sweetest, most caring, and prettiest woman to have ever walked this Earth, but that is beside the point. Who have you told?”
“As of this moment the only people who know about the pregnancy are Melissa, Aiden, and now you.”
“Really, that’s it?”
“Yeah, it has been really difficult to keep this from Niall and Louis. I talk to them so often, and I look at them like family so it has been really hard. I can’t tell if it is easier to hide it from Louis or Niall, but I think I will tell Louis first. One I think he will respect my decision to tell Liam on my own. Two, I look at Louis as a big brother; we have a really special bond. This secret is going to come out soon though, because even my baggy sweatshirts are starting to get tight around my stomach.”
I looked at Rian and then at the small bump that I hadn’t noticed. Was this what I was expecting when I began to have feelings for Rian? Not at all, but God put this girl in my life for a reason. There was something in both of us that connected us, and it is that connection that is going to only become stronger as time goes by. I gently grabbed Rian’s hand and rubbed it. Her skin was so smooth and soft. When I think about the previous year it’s crazy to think I am sitting here with a beautiful yet broken girl. She didn’t know that she was sitting with a man who at one time was broken as well. Growing up in Louisiana I was bullied constantly, and it was one of the biggest deciding factors on why I chose to attend NC State. I could reinvent my image here, but I didn’t have too. People liked me for myself, and I began to love myself too. I need to show Rian that people won’t leave her side. I won’t leave her side.
“Rian, can you play the piano” I asked softly.
Taken aback Rian answered, “Um… Yeah I can. Why?”
“I want to show you something” I told her as I pulled her off the couch.
We walked into the second room in my apartment. As a guy who lived alone I certainly didn’t need the second bedroom, but I wanted one. I needed a place to play and practice music,. I also need some extra room to store my piano. I led her to the bench opened a song that I wrote just the other day. It was a song that I wrote for her. I quickly grabbed my acoustic guitar.
“Already start playing” I instructed her. Rian began to play those chords that I had written one morning at two o'clock. I followed suit with some of the guitar piece that I was still working on. I took a deep breath before I began to sing.
You know I'd fall apart without you
I don't know how you do what you do
'Cause everything that don't make sense about me
Makes sense when I'm with you
Like everything that's green, girl, I need you
But it's more than one and one makes two
Put aside the math and the logic of it
You gotta know you're wanted too
'Cause I wanna wrap you up
Wanna kiss your lips
I wanna make you feel wanted
And I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
And never let you forget it
Yeah, I, I wanna make you feel wanted
Anyone can tell you you're pretty, yeah
And you get that all the time, I know you do
But your beauty's deeper than the make-up
And I wanna show you what I see tonight...