I wake up to the sound of breathing and snoring. I look over and see everyone in my room. Everything from last night comes back to me. I let out a sob. Luke's eyes snap open. He looks over at me and strokes my cheek. I lean into his touch and I ask him to hold me. He does. I lay my head against his chest and relax. He calms me. "Luke?",I call.
"I wanna go to the park.". He chuckles.
"At five-thirty in the morning?",he asks. I nod. "Okay.". He gets up and we tiptoe over the boys and downstairs.
"Mom should be home this weekend.",I tell him. We walk outside and head over to the park. We sit on the swings. "Remember when you fought Billy Murphy here?",I ask. He nods and nudges me with his foot.
"He gave me to you. He sold me over to you like a dog.",I whisper. He looks into my eyes. God, why are they so blue?
"He loved you. He trusted me with your safety. And I failed him.", he admits. I laugh without emotion.
"Don't get all sappy on me. What happened happened. And nothing's gonna change that. You may have failed at protecting me. The proof is on my body! And you're guilty! You're guilty, I'm broken, and my dad's dead! Yipidy-do! Get over it!",I scream. I stalk away.
"Charlie! Charlie,wait!",he demands. "You're scarred?". I turn. I nod. I'm angry now.
"Yeah. I'm scarred." I lift my shirt so he can see the huge red scar on my stomach. "Thanks for failing.",I say,turning back. I'm hurt again.
I snuggle deeper into my blanket. I hate him. I take a bite of my ice cream. I love this! I sigh and shut the T.V. off. I'm hurt. I text Mikey to come up here. Charlie~ Come up here. I wanna play with your hair. ~ He texts back immediately.
Rainbow Unicorn ~ Coming! :-) ~. I smile and wait. He bursts through the door and jumps on my bed. I ruffle his hair.
"Mikey...don't ever fall in love...it hurts too much.",I whisper. He looks up at me.
"We all know you love Luke. We...uh...kinda read your diary.",he says sheepishly. I punch his arm playfully. "Hey! It was mostly Calum!". He shifts on my bed. "But we know you love Luke a lot. And that's hard to do!",he says. I punch him again.
"I love Luke. But does he love me?". We hear a car door slam from outside. I look out the window. It's a cab. My mom steps out and Luke hugs her.
"There's no use in trying. Luke will never love me the way I love him.".
"Hi,Mom. I missed you.", I say, hugging her. She smiles and then frowns. "What's wrong?".
"I have to leave again. I came back to pack. I'll only be gone one more week.",she apologizes. I tell her it's okay. She doesn't need to know what's happened. I should've never fallen in love.