C A L U M
Two months without her... is just like being shot in the heart. But then again, I am the one that made her leave..
"Calum, open the fucking door!" Michael shouted, pounding on the locked door of the bathroom, which I was currently in.
"No! Fuck off!" I shouted back at him, sliding all of my rubber bracelets the off my wrist.
"Goddammit, Calum, open the door!" I listened to Mike shout as I stared down at my wrist.
"Calum!" I heard Mike yell, but to me... it sound faint, almost imaginary, like it wasn't there.
I stared at all the white lines, some looked faded, others didn't.
I suddenly remembered the promise I made to Michael a month ago, telling him I wouldn't cut again. I never thought I would break a promise that soon.
I looked away as I slid the blade across my wrist. I only looked when I felt blood trickling down the side of my arm.
I pursed my lips, grabbing band aids and using the to cover the cuts. Turning the sink on, I watched as the blood disappear into the drain.
I hid my blade so neither Mike or any of the boys would find it.
I unlocked the door after I slid all of my bracelets on.
As I opened the door, Michael stood there with a worried look on his face.
"How many?" He asked me, glancing at my arm full of bracelets.
"I-I don't know, I wasn't paying attention," I mumbled, walking past him and towards the window we had in the hotel room.
"Goddammit, Calum you need to stop this. It's not healthy for you." Mike exclaimed at me.
"You know why I do it Mike," I told him, grabbing a hoodie of my bed, slipping it on.
"And you know why I think you should stop," Mike argued back.
"I can't Michael, it's the only way I know how to control the pain," I told him, adding onto the argument.
"Then find something else that controls it. You always give amazing advice to fans about why they shouldn't self harm," he paused, "take your own advice Calum. Stop doing this," he paused once again as I walked towards the door, grabbing onto the doorknob, "do it for her. I know she wouldn't want this."
"I broke her heart Mike," I mumbled, "me being in the same or even worse pain than she's going through must be like a bittersweet feeling." I said, opening the door.
I went to take a step but was stopped.
She was standing there, looking up at me shocked. Her arm was in the air, her hand balled in a fist, showing that she was about to knock on the door.
"D-Daniella," I mumbled out in disbelief. This couldn't be real... she-she was thousands of miles away. I have to be dreaming.
Wake up. Wake up! This isn't real! She's in back Australia. She's not coming back to you Cal. You hurt her enough as it is. I thought to myself.
Then I hear her angelic voice ringing in my ears, "Calum," she breathed out, staring up at me.
I couldn't keep my eyes off of her. It was like I was seeing her again for the first time. But this time... she was very pale and skinny. She didn't look like herself. And this was all my fault.
"I um, I have to go. Ash texted me, something urgent and I have to head to the studio. So I'll be back in a couple hours," Mike spoke up, walking past me and quickly whispering, "I'll be back in an hour, don't do anything you wouldn't do while I'm in the room." He whispered to me.
I watched as he planted a kiss on the top of Dani's head in a brotherly way, "give him a chance," I heard him faintly whisper to Dani as he left down the hall.
The two of us stood in silence before I suddenly realized I was basically making her stand in the hall without letting her inside.
"Do you, uh, do you wanna come inside?" I asked her nervously, opening the door wider for her to come in.
"S-Sure," she stuttered, walking inside with her head low, not wanting to look at me.
I closed the door behind her as she walked in.
I watched her walk inside and stand in the middle of the room. I so badly wanted to speak to her, but I have absolutely no idea where to start.
All that heard in the room was... well, nothing. It was complete silence. An awkward silence as well.
"Did you forgive me yet?" I murmured out, remembering the moment when she said she wouldn't forgive me for walking out on her.
"Not really, no," she answered back quietly, shaking her head lightly. It was now when I realized she changed her hair color. It was now a faded lilac color, last time I seen her it was just plain black.
"Oh," I murmured, the feeling of pain stinging me in the chest where my heart should be, recently it just felt like an empty hole was there.
"Do you still-" I heard her start speaking but she instantly cut herself off, looking in a different direction then at me.
"Do I still, what?" I asked her, cautiously walking closer to her.
"Do you-" she paused, looking down at her shoes.
I was now standing directly in front of her, I wasn't think when I put my index and middle finger under her chin, tipping her chin up lightly for her to look up at me. Surprisingly, she didn't flinch away or move away from me, she just stood there and looked into my eyes.
"You can say it baby, I'm not going to judge you.." I whispered to her.
"Do you still love me?" She whispered back, staring into my eyes warily. I could already tell, the question alone frightened her.
I didn't give it much thought, I already knew the answer, "of course I still love you. It was my mistake for hurting you. If I could take it back, in an instant I would." I told her, staring into her beautiful green eyes, "I'm in love you Daniella Clifford, to fucking moon and back." I added on, proving to her that I meant what I said.
She didn't say anything, which was scaring me.
"These past two months have been absolute hell for me. It was all my fault for what I did to you, and honestly I wouldn't be surprised if you didn't love me at all-" I was bound to continue but she cut me off.
"But that's where you're wrong," she paused, looking at me carefully, "I'm one hundred percent..." she took a short pause, "head over heels in love with you Calum Hood." She told me.
I grinned widely and leaned down capturing her lips in mine. Again, to my surprise, she didn't move away, all she did was kiss me back softly.
My hands traveled from the sides of her face to her waist. I felt her tug on the belt loops of my jeans, pulling me closer to her, enclosing the space between us.
My hands slid down to her bum, mumbling, "jump," against her lips.
She did as told and I caught her in a swift movement, cradling her bum, her legs wrapping around my waist for support.
I began walking backwards towards the bed, my knees hitting the edge causing me to fall backwards, taking her down with me.
We were full on making out now. My hands slid up her back underneath her shirt as she straddled my waist.
"What the fuck Calum?!" I heard scream from only feet away. Dani quickly pulled away from me and stood up onto her feet.
I looked to see who the voice came from, and there stood Alexia in a red mini skirt, a black tank, and red stilettos.
"You're cheating on me?!" She screamed at me, "with her!" She screamed, sending a glare towards Dani.
"Cheating?" Dani asked quietly, looking down at me confused and hurt.
"No, no, it's not what you think," I said quickly, standing up off the bed to be closer to Dani.
"No. It's exactly what it looks like." Alexia interjected, glaring at Dani, but when I looked over at her, she sent me a smirk. She was waiting for this.
"What are you still doing here?" I asked her angrily, "get out!" I exclaimed angrily.
"No, stay, I should be the one leaving," Dani said to Alexia before she looked up at me, "goodbye Calum," she said, not daring to look me in the eyes before she turned and walked past Alexia and towards the door.
"Later Slut," Alexia called out to her as soon as Dani began walking out.
Dani glanced at me with a hurt look before shaking her head and closing the door behind her.
"Dani wait!" I called after her, running towards the door.
"Come on baby, you don't need her," Alexia said to me as I opened the door.
"I do need her, it's you who I don't need." I said to her, leaving the room, not bothering to see if the door closed behind me before I began running down the hall in the direction Dani left.
I turned a corner and slowed down at the sight in front of me. She was waiting for the elevator with her head hanging low, and once in while her shoulders would shake lightly, proving to me that she was crying.
I have to fix this... before it's too late.
D A N I
I can't believe him. He was just telling me he'd never stop loving me, then next thing I know his NEW girlfriend comes walking in with me giving into him.
I thought I meant something to him. I guess I was wrong.
A dinging noise went off, signaling to me that the elevator doors were about to open.
I was about to step in when I was pulled into someone's arms.
I began crying even more.
"Let me go," I told him, tears slipping as I tried to unwrap his arms from around my waist.
"No, I won't let you go." He argued, he was too strong compared to me, I wouldn't be able to get out his arms without some struggle, maybe not even that would help.
"You lied to me Calum," I said, turning in his arms to face him, "and I was an idiot for even believing you," I said, angrily pushing on his chest.
"I didn't lie to you Dani." He tried to convince me differently, not letting me go, "she doesn't mean anything to me-" he tried but I wouldn't let him continue.
"She said you cheated on her Calum!" I shouted at him, not caring if anyone heard me, "just seconds ago you were kissing me and telling me how you loved me, then she comes in and proves you wrong," I paused, pursing my lips, "for fucking two months, my life was shitty. And it was all your fault!" I shouted, "here after what you said, I thought there was still hope. Now I realize after everything I went through, after everything WE went through, you still don't care." I mumbled, "everyone was right, you're just another player looking for another heart to break," I told him as I unwrapped his arms from around my waist and made my way towards the stairs.
"Okay, yeah, I'm an asshole! I get it! But I didn't lie to you, when I told you I loved you, I meant every word." I listened to him pause, "I meant it when I said it the very first time," I suddenly thought of when he was singing Heartbreak Girl while he thought I was sleeping, I guess he knew I was awake, but it didn't matter anymore.
"I meant it before and after I asked you to be my girlfriend. I meant it back in that room. And I mean it now," he paused, and I could tell by the sound of his quiet footsteps, he was slowly walking behind me, "I'm in love with you Daniella Clifford," I heard him pause, "I love you and I'm never going to stop loving you. I'm not giving up on us," I heard him call out before I closed the door to the stairwell, the soundproof door blocking him out.
I wanted to believe him. I wanted to run back to him and let him hold me in his arms. I wanted him to whisper sweet little nothings and tell me everything was going to be okay. But I couldn't find the will do so, I didn't want to find the will to do that. I wasn't sure if he was telling me the truth or not.
But I could go back... because this time... I was the one leaving him. And honestly, no matter how deep my feelings are for him, I'm not letting him get to me. I'm giving up on us... and that's finale.
It's the finale chapter dudes.. My Brother's Best Friend is over.
IT'S OVER DUDES! *tears*
I'm actually quite proud of myself tbh. This is the first book I started writing and actually ended it. Usually I just end up writing and then deleting all the chapters. This is like a big moment for me guys. Haha.
Well anyways, Just Another Love Story | Calum Hood Sequel to MBBF.
So yep. I'm doing, I'm making a sequel kiddos. (I'm sorry, I'm pretty sure almost all of you are older than me.)
This is gonna be good... hopefully. But yeah, just like Isabelle Dujali said, Cal and Dani do need a happier ending so I decided, "why the hell not? I'm making a sequel."
And by the way, if I get it done soon, I will post a little "teaser" or whatever you wanna call it for the sequel.
So yeah, that's that. I love you, stay strong, stay beautiful, and I'll talk to you all very soon.
Peace awesome nerds. :p
- That Clifford Kid