(True beginning of diary)
22nd July 2015 12:16am:
Things happen, things change, things hurt...
While I was away on a camping holiday with my family, Adam opened up and told me the truth for once, but of course he told Ella first...
He's been talking to another girl while we've been together, he told me how they 'got on well'. It's not exactly cheating but it hurts just the same.
He said he liked her/likes her and I'm lost, I don't know what to do. I knew something bad would happen, that's the way my life works. Everyone I care about leaves me.
I'm crushed and I feel alone, but I'm still with him, sort of. We are on a 'break' at the moment. Everyday my feelings fade, but pain lingers.
Maybe it's best if we end it properly but he keeps telling me he loves me and it's making it so hard for me to leave him.
On Tuesday, I met up with Max. It was great, I had a good time. He made me forget about Adam for a while, he's always been there for me.
We've been becoming better friends lately the problem is, I can fall for people fast and I'm scared I'll make that mistake, being the idiot I am.
He old me he like me....I'm not sure I believe him, he's dancing two songs at once, meaning he's said he likes me AND someone else, who happens to be a best friend of mine....
Which isn't the best thing. But I can't say much because I'm kind of doing a similar thing, I'm just as bad an Adam....:(
And that makes me a terrible person.
I've got a past with Adam and he says he loves me but he's always hurting me and always will.
But Max, he's so nice, he's like Adam but better. He listens to me and he's funny and he's kind of adorable I don't know how else to put it. He doesn't get mad when I say some thing or yell at me or get annoyed like Adam would. He understands me as a person much better than anyone ever has, but....he has a thing for someone else too.
I'm think he should go with that other person because I want him to be happy like he deserves. But he told me she rejected him.