11. reaching for someone else
Tuesday 28th July 2015, 10:19pm:
God, I'm so stupid, why do I keep doing this? It hurts so much afterwards, it doesn't fix anything. But, I'm addicted or something, I'm so drawn it it. It's so so wrong I know that, but I'm....wrong.
It's just a way of coping, turning emotional pain to physical. I want to die, but I haven't found my way to rid of myself yet or chosen when.
So I'll slowly destroy myself till there's nothing left.
It helps me, so why is it so wrong? This is stupid and pathetic if Me, but what else do I do...
You were reaching for someone else.