3. chapter 3
My father quickly jumps up to shake James's hand knocking him out his daze. My father turns back to me hand taking my hand and putting it in James hand. I look up at him threw my eyelashes. He's gorgeous.
"you two will make a wonderful husband and wife." says Mr.Barker reminding me I will have to marry this man I barely know. The thought makes me quickly take my hand out of James grasp. My mother frowns at me and I don't even want to look at James.
"should we discuss Elizabeth's luggage shipment?"my mother speaks. Wait what luggage? why would I need to ship my luggage? Mr.Barker answer my questions by stating "oh yes she may be supplied with clothing by the maids until her luggage is present."
"What are you talking about?" I speak up. " since you and James will not be married you will live here until the wedding so you can get to know each other."she explains but I'm angry. "And why did I not know this?" I question. "Well I didn't think you would mind…" I cut her off "But I do care." she stares at me. "You are a women Elizabeth. Women do what they are told."she has her eyes narrowed at me. "Of course mother."I snap. she doesn't show any reaction when I walk away.
I lean against the wall in the hall. Everything is so confusing. I didn't want this. No one seems to care what I think or have to say.Sometimes I feel like I'm drowning and no one cares.I run outside for a sudden need for air.
The wind catches my dress and hair worling it all around. The snow crutches under feet as I climb the big hill in the Barker's west valley. I reach the top and the sight is wonderful. Every inch of the Barker's property is covered in sparkling white. One day this could all be mine. He could be mine. I know I don't want this but I haven't took the time to think about what will happen when it does. I sit in the snow making my white silk dress damp. I start fiddling with my thumbs as I get lost in my mind.
"Elizabeth are you alright" I turn around to find James standing behind me. I recollect my thoughts and brush my self off as I stand. "Yes I only needed some air." He doesn't look like he did when he first walked into the Grand room. His hair is all messy and he looks pale. When I take in his appearance I add " and this view is amazing." he relaxes a little " it is lovely isn't it." " yes. I don't think I've ever seen any view as remarkable as this one." he give a small smile " Yes sometimes I like to come up here and draw…" he stops and flushes. "You draw?" I can't help but giggle " sometimes" his face is so red. " Well I'd love to see one someday if you ever let me." he nods "I think what you did back there was really brave." I chuckle softly"no one cares what I have to say." I look down at my feet."I do." he says I look into his eyes they have the most beautiful sparkle.
We head back to the Grand room as much as I don't want to. We make small talk as we walk back. At one point when I'm in the middle of a laughing frenzy he surprises me by taking my hand. I don't pull away. When we get back to the grand room and one of the servants run up to James and whisper something in his ear. Imminently his expression changes he. He looks between angry and surprised . He kisses my hand walks away.